'While taking you out of this misery that your life is now bearing, and keeping you by my side until your world starts clearing,
I'll love you unconditionally and will bring you out of your Dark Past, definitely.'
YOUR SAVIOUR, JEON JUNGKOOK
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"Good Night, princess!" He kisses my forehead and closes his eyes.
I hate him so much.
_06:00.a.m._
Now sitting in his car's passenger seat while he's driving, all I'm doing is looking out of the window. I couldn't sleep even a bit last night. Well... who knows what his next step would've been? But all I did last night was to cogitate over his personality.
Letting his bad side alone, he's caring. He loves me alot and would tear the person apart who'd dare to touch me with bad intentions. All he wants is to make me love him. But... Who'd love his raper. He forces himself on me or punishes me, only when I contradict his orders and do what I know won't please him. Just like I slapped him last time. He tortures people, who are mostly his enemies- or who have tried to approach me- infront of me only because he knows I hate violence, let alone such extreme violence that he uses- Cutting and bruising people, almost making them meet with their reapers. He says he'd stop doing that with me if I say I love him and mean my words. He'd give me the world. But love isn't something you force someone to do, now is it?! And above of all, you can never fall in love with someone who have made you regret living yor life, who have enjoyed destroying you.
He says he didn't rape me that night. He said he was making love to me but who the fuck makes love to the ten year old when she's just an innocent soul. I hate him and will always do with the core of my heart no matter how much pain I'd have to go through everyday just for hating him. But one thing tortures me- even makes my inner self bleed- the thing that 'I'm becoming the cause, that he tortures people. Just because of... me. Just to make me... love him.'
"Princess!" His cringy voice invades my ears, forcing me to come out of my thoughts. I turn my head in his direction, looking at him in daze. "We're here." He makes me realise that the car has stopped, I look out of the window to see my house in sight. Slightly nodding, I open the door, taking hold of my handbag that was laying on my lap but his strong grip on my forearm stops me in my movements, making me look up at him. "When are you leaving for Japan?"
"About.... at 11. But... I have to be there at 09:00.a.m. Why?" I state but ask the reason for his question. "I'd like to stay in contact with you. So make sure to answer my text and calls as soon as possible." He sets his conditions but I don't like it at all. I don't text him neither call him when he's on his business trip. "I'd probably be busy as I don't have a set schedule for now. So don't mind it if I don't reply soon." I use it as a pretext and free my arm from his hold but his hands fly to my head and he attaches his dirty lips to my mellow ones. He makes the kiss linger as I didn't return the kiss but he retreats, slightly tugging on my lower lip. "Stay safe, princess!"
I don't make the eye contact but just hurry to get out of the car and make my way to my house, rubbing my lips vigorously. He won't leave until I enter and as I don't want anyone to see him, I take the keys out of my bag and open the door to finally enter and close it behind me. I've made sure to make him invisible in the sight of Anna, neither he's shown himself to her so, I'd like to keep Anna oblivious of his presence in my life. I'd never want to introduce her to the person who destroyed my life and whom she hates just like me as she knows that my senior was the one who raped me. Difference is just that, I hate him even when he's infront of my eyes and she hates him in her mind- her imagination- as she hasn't seen him in real life and I'd like it to be just like it.
