Why.23

                                    

                                          
Mariah

                          
The sounds around me were just whispers at first.Or like static.Fuzzy.But the more clear my head became the more the sounds cleared.My heart beat was first obviously.My breathing.Then the sounds of the monitors around me.The easy rhythm of the beeps.Then someone sucking in a breath.I focused on that person.Easy breaths.Deep.calming.Then their heart.It was normal.Steady.Perfect.
Then i felt my toes.I was able to wiggle them.My muscles came back to life slowly.I was able to flex my hands soon enough.my whole body was still tired.I wondered how long id actually been here laying still.I wondered how long it had been since i knew i could hear the person breathing on the other side of the room.
                          
Finally i felt my eyelids flicker.Then instead of the welcoming darkness, i was surrounded by a bright white light.It was everywhere.It took a few minutes before i could finally make out shapes around the room.I looked around a little disoriented.Until my eyes landed on a pair of chocolate shining irises.My breath matched his.Slow steady and my heart, which on the monitor showed was racing, was calming.His arms were empty and my eyes flickered around the room.Noah walked up to my bed and helped me position the bed so i could sit up a bit. "Your mom just took Jedd.."his voice was soft and i hummed.He turned and i heard the unmistakable sound of water.I didn't realize how bad i needed it until i heard it.Even worse when i saw the droplets of perspiration on the water jug.Meaning it was cold.Noah held the cup seeing as my muscles were still weak.He held the straw in my mouth and let me drink.I hummed gratefully and my body welcomed the drench of ice cold water.Noah smiled and the back of his hand brushed my cheek so gently.I looked into his chocolate eyes, they held so much love.Happiness."did you guys bury him?"I asked softly making Noah nod.His soft smile saddened and he brushed my hair from my shoulders."It was a beautiful funeral..the moon goddess was happy to have him..not so happy to have him so soon though."he said making my eyes water."You cared for Jedd.."I trailed off softly making him nod."Why?"I asked softly looking at him.His brows furrowed and he looked confused."Why did i care for Jedd?"He asked and sighed shaking his head when i nodded.
"Mariah.. id love anything that had even a fraction of you within them.Even if it had just been a bird you loved or a flower..and i didnt like Kaleb at first..for obvious reasons."He said making my eyes flicker to my hands."He became an Alpha, a man that I respected, a man i still respect so greatly. Because he saved the one thing i fucked up so bad. He healed and loved the one person i shouldve loved and protected and accepted the moment i realized the truth..."he held my face in his hands again."Kaleb saved you..the most precious part of my life..then he only responded how any sane wolf would..he fell in love with his mate.."he said making me sniffle."Second chance mate."I whispered making his shake his head."First and true or second chance..he made the right decision... of course i cared for Jedd.How could i let anything that is of you hurt? How could I disrespect Kaleb by not caring for and protecting his son?"Noah said and his thumb brushed fallen tears from my cheeks.His eyes burned with tears and he held my face so gently.No more words were spoken.We stayed there looking into each others eyes.My wolf whined and i sucked in a breath.I turned away and looked out the window."Can i see where you buried him?"
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Uhhh so..this is a short chapter.
It was on hold for a whileee.
I didnt know what to do. I got inspiration from another author AuthorAnon_ . But their book is so good it inspired me to keep writing.Please check out the book i know its called Captive Of The Sea. Its in my reading lists. 
Oh yeah also please vote and comment.Share as well it helps me out and it would mean a lot to me.Thank you so much for reading.
-A
6/4/2021