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Yuki's POV


                          
"But you are alive and he is not!" 


                          
"Believe me. I-I refused to continue the surgery. They did stop and sent us to our private room. I visited Jaehyuk... I talked to him. I told him I will talk to my Father. I did talk to Father and he just let go of their agreement but Jaehyuk... Jaehyuk asked me a question" Hyunjin cried and stood up as he gathered his strength "Can you take care and love Yuki more than I do?"


                          
There, I lost my strength and fell the floor, tears falling from my eyes. How can he thought of me while his life is at risk? How can he remember me while he is in the verge of dying? 


                          
"I refused to answer because I know he can do better than me. There's a big difference. You love him and he can give you the love and care you needed. I can't do better even if I say yes... He told me that I should make you feel happy and contented. He said he is willing to donate his heart to me. He told me that your parents were against your relationship and he knows that your parents will agree if it's me you are dating. He kept pushing me but I refused... Then, one day. I woke up. I woke up without knowing what happened" Hyunjin


                          
Please. 


                          
"They injected me an anesthesia because that's what Jaehyuk wants. He did sign the paper saying he is willing to donate me his heart. At first, I didn't believe them but they showed me Jaehyuk's cold body. He is gone" Hyunjin looked down and took something from his pocket "And he wanted you to have this letter. I've been wanting to give you but I don't know how" he handed me the letter


                          
I want to open the letter but I can't. Just seeing it breaks my heart already. What more if I read it? I might cry out loud and shout all the pain I am feeling right now. 


                          
"I know everything and it was hard for me to believe. I wanted to hear it from you. That's the reason I wanted us to stop because I know it will hurts us even more but... I always found myself coming back to you. I was hoping that everything I heard wasn't true but here youare, confessing everything. I don't know... I don't think I can still continue" 


                          
Hyunjin smiled and nodded "I-I was expecting that. I really just want to tell you everything. You made me happy and I never wanted to let you go. I hesitated to tell you but I can't lie to you anymore" 


                          
I tried so hard but tears escaped from my eyes. 


                          
"I know this will be the last time we will be talking. Can I ask you a favor for the last time?" Hyunjin


                          
I looked at him.


                          
"Can I hug you? I really need it" he whispered and tears fell from her eyes 


                          
I don't know but I found myself walking towards him and hugged him tight. 


                          
"I'm sorry for everything, Yuki. Believe me or not. Everything I showed you is true. I would always be thankful and grateful that I met you. I'm sorry..." Hyunjin sobbed between her hugs "That's enough. It's getting late. You should go" he let go first and wiped my tears 


                          
I nodded and started walking away but stopped and whispered "I love you, Hyunjin" 


                          
He smiled at me and nodded "Go now. I am afraid that I won't be able to stop myself. Please" 


                          
I continued walking away and tears kept falling from my eyes as I got out of the building. I got in my car and didn't waste any minute, I drove away. 


                          
No matter what happened months ago that involves us both, my love for Hyunjin will always stay in my heart. I will always love him more than I love anyone else. It my be hard for us now that we needed to let go of each other for the freedom, but we have to. This is the best decision we made and I guess being away from each other will make things better. We have a bitter past and we needed to start a new life without each other. 


                          
I arrived and went inside. I saw Mom and Dad at the living room. I tried my best and bowed to them. I was about to go upstairs-


                          
Dad hugged me tight "It's fine"


                          
My tears started falling from my eyes as I heard those words from him. I hated my Dad for making me marry someone I don't love. He was the first one I hated when he was against me and Jaehyuk.


                          
But here he is...


                          
He is the first to notice and feel that I am not fine. I guess feeling pain isn't always bad, it sometimes will lead you to another start with the people who were there for you. 


                          
"It's fine. It'll go away and you will be okay completely. Sometimes crying is the best medicine to lessen the pain. Goodness. Destiny knows how to make someone cry" he whispered and kept caressing my back 


                          
How can I tell them the real reason? I don't want them to hate Hyunjin or his family. I don't want my family to feel bad after what happened to Jaehyuk.




                          
How can I tell them I wanted to leave all the pain behind?