Chapter 41

                                    

                                          

I don't want to kill myself but I am also not scared when it does happen, I am fine if it happens....
                          
I sat down on the bed, wiping away the tears that are flowing like unending river. I have just found out that the person I love the most has been the cause of all my trauma. Every single bad thing that has ever happened to me was because of him but I still can't force my heart to not care, that right now he is fighting his father. My heart is unsettled what if Ryker gets hurt by Wyatt or what if Wyatt kills him.
                          
I have witnessed one thing and that is that Wyatt is very powerful, I don't know what Ryker is capable of but Wyatt seems powerful. I shouldn't care, I should only feel hate but I can't even feel that for him, I can't feel the hate I used to feel for him and I don't know if I want to. Maybe this is a sign that I was never meant to be with anyone, I was meant to be alone and die alone because if the only person that was meant for me hurt me like this then I was meant to be alone.
                          
I don't deserve anyone and no one deserves me, I am not enough even when my love was enough for him. I gave my all to him, one kiss meant everything to me, one touch, just talking to him meant everything to me but what do I get in return, just hurt. Realization that he has never loved me, he has never cared because if he did he would have told me why he did what he did, he would have talked to me first. He would have told me everything, I was willing to forgive him, I was willing to love him, set everything aside and be with him if he ever talked to me.
                          
My job means nothing if it was for him, he has been locking me in the house and I have never complained not once, if he had talked to me and told me that I was in danger I would have listened coz god knows I feel in love with him the day I broke the spell, the day I saw him at my door, he would have told me anything and I would have nodded, I would have accepted everything if he just talked to me but he didn't, he decided to drive me to the edge.
                          
To the point where I felt my life was meaning less. I am so hurt beyond anything but I still can't find it in my heart to leave him alone in this fight. I got up from the bed walking over to the elevator, I pressed and it took me up with me tapping my feet hoping that nothing has happened to him. I reached the second floor and I could hear snarls, growls from above and I prayed for the elevator to move faster than this. I need to make sure that Ryker is fine. I reached the top floor and when the elevator opened all I could see is blood, wolves laying down, some human bodies but no one was around.
                          
I got back in the elevator pressing another floor, I got onto the next one and it was like the last one. I moved from floor to floor following the growls, I reached the twenty second floor and I found five wolves biting each other to pieces but I still couldn't see Ryker or Wyatt anywhere. I gasped falling back into the elevator when one wolf came towards me baring it's sharp teeth at me, I covered my face waiting for it to attack but nothing came, I opened them to find a wolf pulling it back biting into it. I closed the elevator immediately breathing heavily so glad I survived that one but I need a weapon right a way, if I want to survive these wolves.
                          
I got onto another level and this time it was chaotic, wolves were ripping each other apart. I walked in jumping over the dead one being cautious with every wolfe I see, I don't know which ones belong to Ryker's team and which ones are with Wyatt. I kicked one wolf that was sneaking for my leg before running away searching for Ryker on the entire floor but I couldn't find him. Snarls brought me out of my disoriented state of running a lot when I turned around and nearly ten wolves are surrounding me 'Way to get myself in big trouble' their fur is filled with blood with their teeth bared out, eyes showing that they are ready to kill.
                          
I took a step back trying to look for a way to get away from them. They seem ready to pounce, I should have paid more attention in that class that used to tell us more about animals and what to do in order to survive. One growled jumping up, I fell on the ground trying to avoid it but it got thrown all the way over the building. All wolves turned around and there stood Ryker with his ripped shirt filled with blood. I sighed in relief seeing him here, at least Wyatt hasn't gotten to him, he started ripping the wolves without touching them and before I blinked twice they were all dead 'Woah' guess I was worried for nothing he can take care of himself "Are you okay?" He asked pulling me up as I nodded and I know my mouth is a jar "Why did you come up here?"
                          
"I wanted to help you" I replied my eyes on the wolves that are in pieces "I see you didn't need my-" I cut myself off when I saw Wyatt sending his red staff to Ryker. I pushed Ryker out of the way and it hit me right in the chest. I felt like I am being electrocuted, at the same time I was getting burned all at the same time and I knew I wasn't surviving this. I couldn't breath and it all seemed like it was in slow motion. My legs got weak and I expected an impact on the ground but I was held. 
                          
"Its going to be okay stay with me" Ryker said and I could see tears falling down his red eyes. I moved my hand shaky to his cheek, I love him so much "Don't say anything" he said cutting me off when I tried to open my mouth. He laid me down before disappearing from my view, I didn't want to die alone, my body felt cold and I needed him close to me, I needed him with me. I turned my head to see something on fire but my vision was blurry, I couldn't see very well as I chocked trying to breath. It looked like a wolf on fire "Cole, am here"
                          
"Ry-" I couldn't say it all, his hands surrounded me and I felt at peace, at least I will die in the arms of the person I love "I- I lo-ve y-you" I gasped out feeling my body stoping, I can't feel anything in my legs or my arms. Tears fell down my face as I tried to speak again.
                          
"Am sorry, am so sorry please don't leave me" I am not mad at him, I have already forgiven him but I can't say it as everything died down. I could no longer see, hear him nor feel his touche until everything stopped and the world became dark.
                          
'i forgive you'