Chapter 21 Sophia POV

                                    

                                          
The air instantly became sexually charged and neither of us was going to fully acknowledge the tension in the air. His hands slowly and softly roamed my back. The next thing I knew he had deftly unhooked may bra. 


                          
"Won't need that" he whispered. 


                          
I almost moaned right then and there. I desperately need to chill out. 


                          
He skillfully kneaded my muscles to the point of pure relaxation. I was starting to let myself go and not worry about making noises. I didn't think I was put out full blown sex noises yet though and then he started to stray from my back and go a little lower. This was the closest he had ever truly gotten to feeling me up. I wanted him to just take it a step further and grab full handfuls of my ass. He then ventured back up and I had realized I was holding my breath. As I caught my breath, he ventured to up my sides. I heard my breathing hitch once more as he held the sides of my breast, I instinctively lifted my upped body off the bed just enough for him to cup my breaths in his hands. His fingers in automatically found and pulled at my nipples. I heard him gasp, as my nipples hardened under his touch. 


                          
I wanted to roll over and let his mouth find my nipples and when he abruptly pulled away. 


                          
"I'm sorry Soph," he said as he rubbed his face with his hands. " I shouldn't have done that. I should head out." 


                          
I felt dejected and stared down at the floor. I was mentally kicking myself for letting myself get carried away. He pulled me into his arms. 


                          
"Hey," he said tilting my chin up to look at him. " don't over think it. I want you more than you can imagine, but its not fair to you. Your life shouldn't be overturned because of my mistake. That's the only reason why I need to stop. Any further and there would've been no way I could let you go." 


                          
I nodded and buried my face into his chest. He kissed my head as he pulled away and turned and walked down the stairs. My heart broke as I watched him walk out the door. I knew in my heart that I needed to accept this for real this time. I needed to move on as much as possible. I would always drop everything to help him, but I needed to take myself away from him romantically as much as it hurt to do so. 


                          
The next couple of months we only saw each other in class. He was starting to look better. Either the stress of it all was getting better or he was getting better at handling it, but either way he looked like he was doing better. We were a week away from finals and summer break when he pulled me aside after class. 


                          
"Hey Soph." He said barely meeting my eyes and rubbing the back of his neck. "Can we talk?"


                          
I just nodded 


                          
"I'm so sorry. I've missed you and its been killing me trying to stay away and keep my problems from bleeding to you." His eyes made contact with mine, "I needed to tell you everything before I disappeared."
                          
My eyes widened, "you're going to disappear?"


                          
He looked down at the ground, "Yea I'm transferring."


                          
"What?!" I almost yelled getting reactions from people close to us. 


                          
"I know I know. I'm still staying in town and in my house with the guys, but school is so expensive and the state college has the program I want for a lot less money. I need to save money for the baby. Rebecca is doing the same. We still aren't getting back together, but I want to get my shit together so that I can give that baby everything she deserves." 


                          
"She?" I whispered


                          
"Yea" he said softly, "I'm having a baby girl. 


                          
My shock melted when I saw the excitement on his face. He was going to be an amazing dad. I jumped up and gave him a huge hug.  


                          
"You're going to be the best girl dad" I said softly 


                          
I pulled away slightly to look up at him, my arms still wrapped around him, "I'm so excited for you." I said with all the sincerity in the world. 


                          
He kissed my head, "Thanks Soph. That means the world coming from you." He pulled away from me. "I might not be around nearly as much anymore, but seriously if you need anything I will always come running for you."


                          
"Right back atcha" I said pointing finger guns at him trying to make light of the situation and not let on that my heart was breaking even more. 


                          
He let out a goofy laugh, "Alright bye Soph, I'll see you later" 


                          
I couldn't help but let out a huge sigh as I watched him walk away. 


                          
I was so thankful for the fact that after finals I was going to move back home for the summer. I needed the break from everything and just be able to sit on the beach all day.