Jalen only starred at me as I wiped my face and walked to the side door that leads to the patio. I opened it before stepping outside and sitting on one of the beach chair style seats, laying my head back and resisting the urge to start smoking. 
                          
Tahny
                          
It's almost 7 pm and still no text from Jay. I can't say I'm really surprised but the feeling of disappointment is still lingering around. Me and the girls just stayed inside all day and for dinner we had Pizza Rolls that Yaz brought with her. She said, "I knew this was gonna happen cause we too old to be going out every night.", as her defense. After eating we went to our backyard patio and started a fire in a pit they provided for us. We're waiting on Olivia and Yasmine to get back from the store with stuff for smores and hot chocolate. "This whole time it was sunshine and fucking hot rays but now it's cold like hell." I laugh at Macy's complaining but tighten my hold on the blanket around myself, leaning a bit closer to the fire for the heat. "I thought it was gonna be hot tonight like it was yesterday to be honest." I say while taking a sip from my wine glass.
                          
Yes a bitch felt boujee so she went ahead and poured a glass!
                          
"Alright since it's just me and you, I wanna ask about Jay but if you don't wanna talk about it then it's alright we aint got to." I hum before swallowing the wine in my mouth, looking across the fire over to her. She had a sparkly purple bonnet on and a same matching purple fluffy blanket around her body. "There aint much to talk about but we can." She lets the blanket fall off her shoulders before reaching to the table beside her and grabbing the wine bottle, filling her own glass back up. "So what happened exactly? When you told Olivia she looked like she was upset. Not mad but just.. disappointed I guess."
                          
I sigh gently at the thought of that. Olivia has always supported me through shit, no matter how much she tells me it's stupid and she doesn't want me to do it. For her to be this upset and against this, it makes me open my eyes even more to the fact that going back to Jay may not be the best idea for me. Mental or physical health wise. Maybe I shouldn't wait on him, and even if I do, what should I expect. A different Jalen to show up and leave all that drug and shooting shit behind to start a family with a working woman? When it comes down to it I have to do for me and like Olivia said, he left me when I needed support from the lover that put me in that situation.
                          
When I focus back on reality, Macy is patiently waiting on me to reply to her question. I clear my throat and sip from my glass, putting it back down on my lap. "We talked a little and one thing led to another, we were in the backseat of his car." I cringe slightly at the way it sounds. I happily accepted him back into my life without question. 
                          
I'm so fucking weak...
                          
"Did yall have sex?" I shake my head and stare at the fire, feeling my shoulders slump softly. "I'm stupid. I'm so stupid. I should've just walked away from him and not care what he went through. I should've just walked away from his car when he was about to give me a ride. Like what the hell was I thinking Macy? That we could go back to being all happy and shit? He doesn't deserve to be happy with me." I sigh and down the rest of my wine, looking up to see Macy looking at me with a concerned look, causing me to let out a airy laugh. "I'm fine, really. I just need to get over him."
                          
"It won't be that easy, you know that better than anyone baby. But you're stronger than anyone I've ever met too. You'll get through this with our help because you are family. We don't let family suffer and if we do then they damn sure aint suffering alone. Me, Yasmine and Olivia will be here every step of the way. Even if you having like 20 or 30 one night stands to get over this bitch ass nigga." I laugh softly and roll my eyes, shaking my head gently. I get up and go over to Macy, sitting on the loveseat she's in and hugging her tightly. "Thank you mamas, you really always been there for me but don't worry, I'll get over him faster than you think."