Cordially Invited [NozaKura Songfic]

                                    

                                          
I am not the kind of girl..
                          
I stood up and looked at myself in the mirror with an unusual feeling. Look at how I've grown for the past 10 years. I think I've gotten taller, and my hair has gotten longer. I looked more mature now, but I'm still that same tiny ginger back in high school who "fangirled" over this certain mangaka. Oh, the memories.
                          
..Who should be rudely barging in on a white veil occassion..
                          
I brushed my hair and picked my only white dress in my closet. I partnered it with a large white bow, which I rarely put on since it is milky white. And then I noticed my pair of polka dotted bows. I still kept it, but I've never wore it again since I graduated high school. I took my white heels from the rack and slipped my feet inside. Again, I went to my mirror and put on some light make-up. After that, I stared at myself. Then, I tried to smile.
                          
..But you are not the kind of boy..
                          
I went downstairs with my sling bag and exited my apartment, locking the door. I combed my hair once again using my fingers this time. I feel so nervous, but I don't know why. I took a few steps and reached for my bag. 
                          
..Who should be marrying the wrong girl.
                          
Taking out an envelope, I slowly opened it with a shaky hand. I could feel tears forming in my eyes, but I think I could hold it back. I took out an invitation card. A card—a mere card—is making me tear up. A card which tells me that I'm invited to a wedding. 
                          
Nozaki-kun's wedding. 
                          
I sneaked in and see your friends..
                          
I arrived at the said church on time. It's crowded but beautiful. The exact description of my dream wedding. I told him that this is how I want my wedding to be. He told me it's cute, and he'd probably add it to his manga. I never thought he'd also apply it in real life. This is my dream wedding, the only difference is that, I'm not the bride. I walked around and saw my high school friends. They all look so different now! Seo, Kashima, Waka, Hori-senpai, Mikorin. They waved at me so I went to their direction.
                          
..And her snotty little family all dressed in pastel..
                          
As the gang is enjoying the reunion, I turned my head to this one corner where all the special guests, specifically the family members, are staying at. I saw Mayu, who is looking good in his black suit and tie. Their parents and their sister are also present, of course. Then, I sighted the bride's family. Compare to Nozaki-kun's, her family tree is much smaller. Probably because she's the only child. They're all wearing pastel colored garments. It doesn't suit the theme at all, but who am I to judge?
                          
..It seems that I was uninvited by your lovely bride-to-be.
                          
Since we're Nozaki-kun's "special friends," we're sitting in one of the front rows. I then turned to the front door as it revealed the lovely bride. The ceremony has started. I noticed her gown, and.. it does suit the theme but, well, she has the same style like her family. She's like a walking pastry, but prettier. A lot prettier than me. I gave her a friendly grin. It was forced. Instead, she rolled her eyes and resumed the seemingly fake smile. Okay.
                          
She floats down the aisle like a pageant queen..
                          
The bride began to pace towards the groom, very slowly. She's smiling beneath her veil. She's gorgeous and poised. Everyone stood up to witness the beautiful bride. I had a smile on my face, but I was sad. It was supposed to be me. 
                          
..And I know you wish it was me.
                          
I decided to take a glance at Nozaki-kun, who is standing in the end. He looked happy. That made me sad. I know it's been years, but I'm still in love with him that it hurts to see him get married to another woman. To the wrong woman. I gazed at him, studied his face as if it's my first time looking at it. He's still the same mangaka I fell in love with. The same boy I didn't get a chance with. Yep, it's him. All happy because finally, he's getting married to the woman he loves. But what about me?
                          
He wished it was me, right?
                          
Don't say yes, run away now. I'll meet you when you're out of the church, at the backdoor. Don't wait and say a single vow. You need to hear me out when they say “speak now.”