5 // New  beginnings

                                    

                                          
Today it was a new day, 'Monday' which unfortunately meant my first day of school, I've been to a lot of schools over the years so you'd think I'd of gotten used to it by now but I haven't. 
I'm still nervous, to meet new people to see who my teachers are to see who the new mean girls are because high schools always have those, to see what my new school is like, it's always terrifying to be the new kid and I always am the new kid but I'm still not used to it.
"Jayden will show you around today Taylor" Mel said as we all got into the car 
"Why do I have to show her around" he said while rolling his eyes 
"Jayden cut it out don't be so rude it's Taylor's first day how do you think she will feel" Mel yelled out 
Jayden just rolled his eyes gave me a dirty and looked back out the window 
I don't know what it was about this kid, one minute he was nice and welcoming trying to get to know me and the next minute he was a total ass but for some reason that just made me reel into him even more, I know foster siblings aren't meant to date and it could ruin everything but everything was already ruined and I tend to like to ruin things before there's anything to even ruin, I knew we had a spark I don't know if he felt it too but I surely did.. 
                          
As we finally reached meadows high school I felt my heart beater faster and faster during the moment, I was in my own little world, this was the one thing I hated about moving from place to place. 
"So welcome to hell" Jayden said while giving me a half smile 
"Well that sounds inviting" I said back
There were groups of kids outside of the school, the loners, the bestfriends, the nerds, some were in their phone, some were in their books and some were listening to music. 
Jayden showed me to my locker and to my first glass which was English, I didn't mind English I was a good writer and a reader I was pretty good at it to be honest. 
I took a seat at the back of the classroom as the teacher walked in and every other student taking their seats, the teacher was trying to get everyone to be quiet and some did but others just wanted to chit chat to their friends 
"Shut up" the teacher yelled out
I couldn't help but laugh, I was trying to be quiet I was trying to not be seen and I was hoping that the teacher didn't call out to me because I hated being the centre of attention but knowing my luck it wouldn't be that simple. 
"We have a new student Taylor everyone make her feel welcomed and I'm mr Smith your English teacher" he said while everyone turned towards me 
I just nodded my head and it was obvious at all that he was my English teacher I thought to myself while trying not to laugh. 
                          
Soon enough it was lunch, I sat by myself looking like the loner new kid until a girl walked upto my table and sat down across from me she looked like she was abit shorter than me, she had long blonde hair with pink at the bottom and big beautiful green eyes
"You must be the new kid, I'm Bella" she said while giving me a sweet smile 
"Taylor"
"Mind if I sit here"
"Not at all" I said while smiling and still eating my lunch 
It was nice to have someone to talk to at lunch and she seemed sweet, we spoke about our classes and she said that we should hang out between our classes and when we do have classes together she also said that she would introduce me to her friends when they were around. 
                          
She showed me the ropes of the new school and where everything was she was even in some of my classes and took me to my next class which was history, she told me their were three mean girls but thankfully I haven't ran into them 'yet' she described there look, one had short curly brown hair which was the middle man, the leader had long straight black hair and the last one had short black hair and wore nerdy big black glasses.
                          
The rest of the day went by pretty slow, some parts of it I was finding it hard to concentrate, brendon and grace were going to do there own thing after school and Jayden and I were meant to get the bus home but just before the bell rang I ran out of the school and I walked as fast as I could to the closest town, I don't know what came over me but emotions were filling my head and my body I just had to get out of there I had to go find my sister and then find my daughter I had to have them by my side I couldn't go any longer without making sure they were safe, I always promised my sister that I would protect her and never let anything hurt her but I failed and that killed me, Jayden must of saw me and started chasing me I could hear him yell out my name but I didn't stop I just kept looking forward and walking Faster and faster I felt like I was on a mission, in this world I didn't know who I could trust or talk to beside my sister and she wasn't here she was somewhere in this world without me I couldn't imagine what she was going through, Jayden ran towards me and gently grabbed me by the arm his gentL touch made me shiver 
"Where are you going Taylor the bus is back that way" Jayden said while rolling his eyes still holding onto my arm
"I can't do this anymore I just can't" I replied
"Look I don't know much about you and I don't know what your story is but I can tell you've been through a lot and all we want to do is help you but we can't when you won't let me in" 
I've never heard anyone say that to me before I knew he meant it but I still didn't know whether to believe it or not 
"Why would you want to help out a useless girl" 
"Your not useless your just a person that has been through too much" 
I could fell the tears filling my eyes after I heard that because it's true I've been through way too much for how young I am but something inside me just wanted to tell him everything and wanted to actually trust him which is something I don't do 
"My sister.. I need to find her" I said while looking down at the ground trying my hardest not to cry
"You don't know where she is?" Jayden asked while lifting my head up and wiping my tears away 
"No I don't we were separated I promised to protect her and I failed" I said while more tears were falling
"We will find her you just need to let us help you because you can't do this alone" Jayden said as pulling me into a tight hug trying to comfort me 
I knew he was right I needed to have more trust and faith in people but could you really blame me for not having either of those? Everytime I let my guard down it always got crashed but maybe I should try just this one time I can tell he means every word he just said and if it meant I'd find my sister that's all that mattered to me and then maybe after I found her I could find my daughter. 
                          
Jayden held me for a few minutes as I tried to calm down and get my shit back together but those few minutes felt like hours, he held me tightly which is what I needed in that Moment, I could smell his hair that smelt like coconut onto o of his strong cologne which dragged me into him more, I didn't know what it was about this kid but he made me feel comfortable which I haven't felt til I last saw my sister he made me feel safe which wasn't normal for me he made me feel like I could talk to him like I could find comfort in him. 
                          
We decided not to catch the bus and to have take a walk home because it wasn't a far walk at all but with him it felt even shorter than it was, we finally reached down, it was small but had a lot of little cute shops
"Let's go sit down and have a coffee ya know bonding time" he said while laughing 
"Sounds good" 
He took me to this cute big cafe that had a lot of different cakes which of course caught my eyes, we took a seat, there was a L shaped lounge around the table it was very cozy. Jayden order a hot chocolate he told me he always orders a hot chocolate from this cafe because they do the best hot chocolates in town so I decided to try one myself and he was right they were delicious he also ordered me a vanilla cake because he saw me eyeing it off which I thought was incredibly sweet, no ones ever done that for me before and he said that he would of also chosen the same, today I realise Jayden and I had a lot in common and it was nice to get to know someone I wasn't used to this, he had a passion for music and had a hobby playing the guitar and sometimes the piano, I also love music but I never got the chance to learn a instrument but he told me one day he would teach me which I appreciated. after getting to know each other abit and talking about how music can change your mood and how it distracts you from reality, about our favourite movie genre, jos is adventure action and comedy mine is adventure comedy and romance, after we spoke about what we liked to do, I told him when I was younger I loved to draw which no one knew about me beside my sister and I could never be able to draw being in horrible foster homes, it was really nice getting to know him and seeing how much we had in common. 
"It's getting late we better get home but we will definitely do this again sometime" Jayden said while giving me a cheeky smile 
"Sounds good" I said smiling back 
As we walked home the sunset was forming and it was beautiful 
"You must be cold here take my jacket" Jayden said turning to me taking his jacket off and putting it on me
Again no one has ever done that for me and I felt special I felt warm and safe, how did this boy do this to me when I just met him? I never cared about any stupid rules the foster system had because in the end it all got ruined anyways. 
                          
Laying in bed that night I couldn't stop thinking about my day with Jayden and how he made me feel I didn't understand these feelings and how it could be happening so fast, I've never opened up as much as I did with Jayden today especially for not knowing them that long but there was just something about him that allowed me to pull my wall down just a bit, I didn't know how he felt about me but I sure as hell somewhat knew how I felt about him.