4 // New families

                                    

                                          
I couldn't sleep much that night, I mainly just looked around my room looked out the window wrote down my thoughts and thought about everything that could go wrong.. 
I woke up to the sound of my door knocking and the sun shining through my window
"Come in" I yelled out still half asleep 
"It's girls shopping day" said Mel with the biggest smile on her face
"Yeahhh so get ready" shouted Grace from behind Mel 
So I got ready and threw on some old clothes that I had from the foster system place, we never really had any nice stuff because that's not how the foster system worked they just gave you a couple of outfits they had in there old clothes baskets so that's all I was left with 
So off we went, the car ride felt like it was long, I could hear grace and Mel talking about some stuff that I had no idea about because I was too busy zoned out of the window in my own thoughts as always, I didn't know this family I didn't know what they were like and I didn't trust anyone so what was I even meant to say to them what were we meant to talk about so I just stayed quiet. 
The car suddenly came to a stop, as I got out of the car I looked at the mall, it looked huge, like it had about 8 to 10 floors of some kind of shops, honestly I've never seen a mall this big before.. it looked overwhelming lights shining everywhere and soon enough I was being dragged by grace to the entrance of the mall, well I guess I've noticed this seems like there favourite place. 
"If you see anything you like Taylor let me know and I will get it for you" Mel said as looking over to me 
I just nodded
"Yeah because you need new and better clothes" grace said laughing 
I just ignored her but I saw Mel giving her a little hit and push 
I knew it was true tho but if she was in the system before this family she should know what it's like and that they don't allow you to have any nice things. 
We went to a couple of shops until I found a shop where I liked pretty much everything in there, I was never a big shopper but then again I was never able to ever go 
I tried on multiple outfits
A yellow striped shirt, just normal plain shirts, a leather and denim jacket, a music hoodie, singlets, denim shorts, a black and white skirt, ripped jeans, normal jeans, and pjs  and Mel ended up getting them all for me 
"Thankyou Mel honestly you didn't have to do that" I said looking to the ground 
"I know but I wanted to" Mel said while giving me a nice half smile
It was nice going out shopping but I'm honestly not used to it and it was very overwhelming. 
We went to a few other shops and grace and Mel brought them self a couple cute outfits aswell and Mel even picked out some movie called my forever girl and said were having a family movie night tonight to celebrate me coming into the family or some crap like that. 
Yeah I might of came into the house or whatever but I'm still not apart of the family like it's been one night but I guess she said what she said. 
The ride home was quiet beside the music blasting and grace singing she's actually not a bad singer I was once again zoned out the window in my thought but then again when am I not? 
I felt lost and afraid in this world, I lost myself and who I was once I lost my sister and then again daughter.. life was never fair for me so I've just given up on a lot of things. 
That night Mel called everyone into the lounge room, it was pretty big and a lot of space but I guess they needed that with a big family, she had a nice big flat screen tv on the wall and a little cabinet underneath it, it was cute and cozy and in none of my other foster homes did they have a big tv like that, they had small black and white tvs or just small tv that had colour but not very good quality, as we all walked downstairs we could smell the smell of popcorn and hearing it cook, we all found a place to sit down and wait for Mel and Steve who were getting drinks and popcorn ready, it seems like they have a lot of movie nights with that big tv and wit the way they are getting popcorn ready, it was like being at the cinemas. 
Soon Mel and Steve joined us gave the boys a bowl of popcorn to share, gave grace and I a bowl of popcorn to share and they shared one themselves and placed our glasses of coke on the glass coffs table in front of the lounge and started the movie my forever girl. 
It was a pretty good movie but it was a romantic movie so all the boys were complaining about it during the whole movie and the finishing but grace and I secretly thought they loved it 
"Don't lie you both loved the movie" I said laughing which also made Mel Steve and grace laugh too
Brendon and Jayden roll there eyes 
"Shut up" Jayden said while laughing 
As much as I hate to admit it, it was actually a nice night and bonding experience in some way we all got to know each other abit more even if we didn't talk much during the movie they seem like an alright family and they like having family nights like this well that's the vibe I got off them but I still didn't want to get my hopes up and believe this was my happily ever after because I don't trust easy and my walls are still up.