Hate - Dream

                                    

                                          
Requested by st4rgirll 
                          
Get ready for a lot of requests coming out soon 
                          
Just a warning there will be hate comments, if that wasn't obvious enough. I just want to make sure you guys know before you start reading. 
Bigger TW: There will be self harm, it wont be too gory but I know how sensitive that topic is and if you dont want to read that's completely okay! 
Stay safe everyone <3
                          
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Not the best video I've seen
                          
You should have put a trigger warning 
                          
I would stop trying 
                          
Never thought I would have disliked a laugh before 
                          
I don't even get these comments.. what did I even do? I labeled the video "I'M BAKING!! POG!!" I literally have no idea why I would have to put in a trigger warning? I made chocolate chip cookies but I got that done faster than I wanted so I also made sugar cookies. It was a really fun video, why am I getting hate on it? Part of me wants to call them all assholes and ignore me, but the other part of me is really sensitive. I can't take pain very well and this really hurt to see. Not to mention the like and dislike ratio..
                          
I even had Tubbo join me because he made a couple of cooking streams and had a blast doing it. Of course he had Ranboo and Tommy with him sometimes through a call. I miss being a kid, why did I have to grow up? That's just life I guess. Life sucks. I wasn't prepared for any of it, my mom's parenting skills went down a little as I grew older. Constantly cleaning, cooking, doing all the chores- as soon as I could drive, she made me drive her wherever and whenever she wasn't able to and god forbid I said no. 
                          
I want to stop looking through the comments but I can't. It hurts, but you want to keep doing it. You feel like you deserve all the hate and see all of it after whatever stupid thing you posted on the internet. What did you expect? For eveyone to like you in a society like this one? Good luck with that. I just kept scrolling and scrolling, absentmindedly ignoring all the nice ones. When you're just focused on something, everything around it starts to blur. 
                          
Can Tubbo be in more of your vids? It was really fun to watch! 
                          
Does she have to use another creator for views? 
                          
You burned the cookies 
                          
Didn't she seemed bossy with Tubbo? 
                          
Was I bossy? I didn't think I was.. was Tubbo faking it? Oh my god, I messed up. It was a recording so it wasn't live, he could have left or told me off or something. Then again, Tubbo is really sweet. I don't know if he could. Dammit I need to apologize. I get off my computer and check my phone for Tubbo's number. I don't want to bother him anymore so I only send one text.
                          
Hey Tubbo! Thank you so much for featuring in my video, I had a lot of fun! I hope you did too, and if not that's also okay. I'm sorry if I seemed bossy at all.
Hope you can forgive me 
                          
So maybe I sent two, but I wanted to make sure he knew I was sorry and appreciative for his help. I'm not as big as him on the scale of things so of course some people would think I'm using him. I wasn't though.