The fight: Forgive & Forget

                                    

                                          
"Okay then, let's talk," Jax says. 
I turn to him. He stares at me. I can't believe Jocelyn and Raz did this to me. Oh wait, yes I can. 
"Fine," I say. 
"Why were you such a jerk?" He asks. 
WHAT?!?!? 
"Excuse me I was the jerk? I WAS THE JERK?!?!? You were!" I exclaim. I feel my face go fire red in anger. I could breath flames. Jax doesn't seem to notice or if he has he doesn't care. 
"Yes, you. You used my title against me! Just for-" 
"Just for insulting me? Just for distrusting my sister? Just for making me feel stupid, for making me feel pathetic or making me feel like I was selfish, daft and dense?" I question. I think I see a look of surprise on Jax's face but then it's gone. I realize I may have just matters worse for myself. Great. It's all his fault. How does he see through me? How does he understand me? How does he make me go crazy and why did I lose control. 
It's because you- 
It must be a prince thing. He probably learned it at RA. He has such a different life from mine. 
"No, that's not why! But while we're at it, what about what you said?! That whatever I decide is right? Emphasizing the fact I'm a prince? I thought you didn't care about that! I thought you were different!" He exclaims. 
"You are a prince and just because you are doesn't mean just because you don't trust her, Anna isn't good again! Why do you care so much?!" I exclaim. 
"Because I care about you and I don't want to see you get hurt again! It was bad enough the last time!" He exclaims. 
My heart beats faster as a warm feeling spreads through my body. Forgive him. Forgive and forget, says a voice. But I ignore it. If I am one thing I am very stubborn.
"Well, you wouldn't have to if you stopped being friends with me! And you're being overprotective because you think I'd do something stupid and get myself hurt! That I'm fragile!" I exclaim. 
"That's not it!!!" Jax roars. 
I don't know if I want to laugh or fall on the ground and cry. If I'm not quick I may do both without a choice. For once the voice inside doesn't argue with me. 
"Not fragile, but you care, Gilly. You care a lot and there are emotions you can't control," he says.
"Okay, fine, but Anna wouldn't hurt me like that again," I say. 
"But how you know that? How do you know," he demands. 
I'm silent for a second. "I don't," I say. 
Jax turns to me in surprise. "What?" 
"I can't guarantee Anna won't hurt me. I can't guarantee I won't do something rash either, but that's not my point. Anna is here to find her path. She doesn't want to be overshadowed by her older, heroic sister. She's a lot like me before I reformed. Stubborn, and a girl who cares more about her family than Enchantasia. In fact, if I hadn't reformed, I might've been on Stiltskin's side in the war because of my hatred for royals. If I hadn't met you or even AG, I wouldn't have changed. It all changed because of you guys and the rest of my friends. Anna didn't have you guys, her friends were Hansel and Gretel and she trusted them. But at the end of the war, Anna helped us defeat Alva for a reason. When she realized what she was doing was wrong, that even this wouldn't help her family, she came back because she wanted to change. She wanted a fresh start. She just wanted a happily ever after," I say.
Jax's eyes are wide and he is staring at me. 
"I can't guarantee she'll be that nice to me. But there was only one reason I survived. You guys. My friends. My friends became a family. And you promised you wouldn't let Anna hurt me and I-I trust you," I finish and stare at the ground. All is quiet. I hear footsteps and look up to see Jax walking over to me. He stops in front of me then hugs me. I hug him back. 
"What I said before- I didn't mean to hurt you, Gilly. I was trying to look out for you. Anna's hurt you so many times and I just... I wanted to be ready this time. You care Gilly, you care so much. When Jack came, you weren't naive, you were just hurting and-and maybe a little-" Jax cringes. "Vulnerable." 
I make a face. Jax laughs, then becomes serious again. "Anyways, you didn't expect an attack because you were still thinking your sister was good. I should have understood. I shouldn't have pushed you away. Jack was the only one who understood what you were going through so that's why you hung out with him, while I made you feel uncomfortable with exposing your feelings," he says. 
I let go, still holding onto his shoulders and look him in the eye. "It was not your fault Jax. It's just stupid Rump and Alva's fault," I say. 
He laughs. "Yeah, let's just say that," he says, 
"So are we good?" I ask. 
Jax grins. "Yeah, we're good." 
"Great." I slam my fist into the door. "Joc-" 
The door swings open and I almost fall forward but Jax catches me. I growl at Jocelyn, who is leaning on the wall, writing something on parchment. 
She looks up. "Oh! You're done! Perfect timing too!" She rolls up her parchment. 
"Jocelyn, I will kill you and Raz," I growl. 
"Just us 2? All of our friends helped," she says. 
"What?" Jax and I ask. 
"Except Maxine didn't know," she says. 
"Oh, let's kill our friends!" I say. 
"No. We did bring you back together didn't we?" Jocelyn asks. 
"Yes," I begrudgingly admit. 
"Well then? Say thank you," Jocelyn says. 
"Thank you," Jax says. 
"Thank you," I say softly. 
"I'm sorry, I couldn't hear you." 
"Thank you," I say a little louder, gritting my teeth together. 
"Great, I'm going now," she says and Jax and I follow her. As much as I'm mad at my friends, I'm glad they plotted since Jax and I are friends again. I smile. And that's why you- 
Forgive and forget, a voice inside me says and for the first time in 2 days, I actually listen to it.
***ohhhhh that was so good! I recorded all the screaming & yelling and what I could catch of the Jilly moments. I have enough to fill my page & I will add this to my Jilly file. And the other good part is they're best friends again. Finally. Mission accomplished.

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