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Out of nowhere I heard the intro to a familiar song, my heart started beating fast and my hands felt sweaty, maybe it was a little too soon to listen to One Direction songs, I looked around and saw Maddie with the other girls on the other side of the garden, they were all looking at me frozen as they waited for my reaction, I realized people around me were starting to get their phone's out to take videos, how can so many people recognize the intro to best song ever?
                          
"They're filming me," I whispered to Pat. 
                          
"Then maybe Harry will be able to see how much fun you're having, take this chance and let him see you can have fun without him," he patted my back, he was totally right, "Maybe is the way she walked," he screamed the lyrics and spun me around like a ballerina. He then motioned Maddie and the other girls to join us and they immediately did. 
                          
"She said never in your wildest dreams," Maddie, Kayla, Ronnie, Marley, Amanda and I sang at the top of our lungs, I felt really safe with all this people singing along with me, they were totally supporting me even though we had never met before. 
                          
We definitely turned up the party because people kept joining us, it was amazing, I started to relax as the song went on and I really had amazing time, I never imagined I would be singing best song ever at the top of my lungs with strangers at a pool party the day Harry and I broke up. 
                          
"You know, I know, you know I'll remember you," Singing that lyrics made me feel completely different, I stopped jumping around and just stood in the middle of the dancing crowd feeling my stomach dropping and my lungs running out of air, like a scene out of a movie I felt everything moving around me as I stood there paralyzed, "And I know, you know, I know, you'll remember me," I stopped singing and just heard the lyrics to the songs I didn't even know had a sad meaning... those lines took me back to Arizona, our picnic and how I said when we weren't together I would remember us that way, in the motel after we had sex for the first time...
                          
"I hope you'll remember how we danced," my stomached dropped harder, my mind started playing memories of me and Harry dancing the day we supposedly met at the party, dancing around the kitchen, singing in the car to out favorite 80's music, the little dance victories he made when I accepted to let him do something...
                          
"Alex?" Maddie grabbed my wrists and snapped me out my thoughts.
                          
"It's over Mads, we're over," I said in realization through the lump in my throat, it was really hard for me to breathe or even speak, for some reason I had no tears, just sadness in every single inch of my body. 
                          
"You need to finish this song, even if it hurts, get it all out, shake it off, you need to do this," she screamed over the loud music, I nodded and took a deep breath before screaming the lyrics again, I was aching like never in my life, I had a huge resent, anger, sadness over what happened, she and Marley grabbed my arms and made me jump up and down to the beat. 
                          
"Scream it out," Pat assured me as he danced along. 
                          
I listened to them and just screamed the lyrics ripping my vocal chords, when the end of the song came, everyone slowed down and I was embraced by a bunch of arms around me, "I'm so proud of you," Maddie whispered in my ear, to be honest, I was proud of myself too. 
                          
"Let's go get some water," Pat pulled me inside, all the girls following me, even though I didn't really knew them, I was extremely thankful they were around, the way they backed me up was amazing, it gave me a feeling of sorority and sisterhood I had never experienced. 
                          
Pat handed me a bottle of water and walked out of the kitchen leaving me and the girls alone in there, I hopped on the counter and finished that bottle of water, "You did amazing Alex," Kayla patted my back.