Reincarnation?

                                    

                                          
❤️❤️❤️❤️ So I wrote this in my keep notes. I don't know when or why, I'd forgotten about it till I had an urge to look through my notes. Thus i refind it. May add to it tmrw... Or later this morning I guess lol ❤️❤️❤️❤️
                          
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It's time to make a decision. Do I want to hold onto all I love, or let it go and be free. I have a choice, all I have to do is reach out to one little hand. Well it's not so little, rather large and rough looking yet it beckons me to grab hold, never let go. The boat shifts sending me straight into his arms. He catches me and looks into my eyes.
                          
"Not to worry love, it's only a dream."
                          
Gasping, I wake. I'm at home, in my bed. It's cold. I can hear the rain outside. I get up and look into my daughters room. Her empty bed stares back at me. The boxes of her stuff piled high. Every night I forget she is gone, I have lost her forever. Every day I wake hoping to hear her laugh, see her smile. It will never be.
                          
Awake, I check the time. Only 4:17am. Knowing I won't be able to go back to sleep I put on my dressing gown and head into the kitchen, flick the jug on, open the back door for the dog then see to my morning needs. When I'm done, the jug is boiled. After I've made my coffee, I take it into the lounge and sit on the couch. The dog comes up, tail wagging. Absently I pat it, sipping my drink. 
                          
Time passes and its 5:34am. I get into the shower, spend 20mins cleaning then get out and dress in black tights, a thermal singlet, a long sleeve dress-shirt and knee high boots. Brush and braid my hair, put on some basic makeup and it's 6:30am. The rain had eased to a drizzle. Putting on a jacket I exit the house, locking up and head toward town. Few cars pass, it's quiet. I like the quiet. I reach town a little after 7 and I keep walking towards the cobden bridge. Gotta cross this, turn left then straight to the end. Just before, turn left again to the park, another left and I'm at the old cemetary. 
                          
"Hello." 
                          
"Hello love."
                          
"It's quiet."
                          
"Come my love."
                          
One step. Two steps, faster. Three steps, run. Running accross the grass, straight into his arms. He catches me, holding tight as I begin to sob. 
                          
"Ah, there you go. Let it out my heart, no one is here to hear you."
                          
I cry and cry and cry. Time flies as I sob and cling to him. Soon I calm, just resting upon his body. Mine limp and tired. I was always so tired. 
                          
"I'm sorry." I say.
                          
"I am always here for you."
                          
"Why?"
                          
"Pardon?"
                          
"It has been 2 weeks since my daughter died. I found you a week ago, and each day you allow me to come here and cry upon you, no matter the hour. Why?"
                          
"Because no matter how long I live, I always find you. No matter how long it takes, I am always here when you need me most. You are my heart, my soul, my love. You don't remember me, but I remember every version of you."