The next morning later that day, dumating din sina Sister para kumustahin si Nica. Calvin talked to them privately basta pagpasok lang ulit nina Sister ay pareho ng namamaga ang mata nila, halatang galing lang sa pag-iyak.
Nica woke up that day, she doesn't know her condition but when I told her about it she seems like she kind of understand. Ngumiti lang ito sa akin ng tipid at hinawakan ang kamay ko.
Nakipaglaro ito sa amin habang pinapakain namin siya. Sabi niya masaya siya na nakita niya ulit kami, na nandito pala kami para bantayan siya.
But it broke my heart...it broke my heart when she leaned her head on my shoulder and stare at me, she smiled...well, atleast she tried but her eyes started to get wet while looking at me. Yumuko pa ito para hindi ko makita.
With her small voice, I heard her saying, "Ate Lilac, mabubuhay pa ako matagal po diba po?"
I silently cried with her. Hinawakan ko ang kamay niya ng marahan at hinagod ang buhok niya. "Ofcourse, Nica, ofcourse."
She smiled pero hindi kita sa mata niya ang saya. Hinagod ko ang buhok nito. "Kaya Nica dapat strong ka, okay? You need to be healty para pag may chemo ka, hindi gaanong masakit. You should eat a looot of gulay and fruits? Tapos you need to take your meds, big girl ka na diba?"
"Masakit po 'yon Ate?" Mukhang naiiyak na siya.
I don't want to scare the kid, I don't want Nica to be afraid. I know damn well...I know that it will hurt, a lot. Chemotheraphy is no joke, it will ruin your energy, it will burn you out for sure and Nica is too young to experience this, to experience an extreme pain.
"Ate Lilac will be with you habang nagpapagaling ka, ayos ba 'yon?" Nginitian ko siya, tumango naman ito at niyakap ako.
Bumukas ang pinto at niluwa doon ang matamlay na si Ruwen, tumabi ito kay Calvin sa sofa at hindi umimik kaya ako nalang ang nagsalita.
"Saan ka galing? Hindi kita napansin na lumabas ha."
Tinuro ito ang pinto. "Sumaglit lang sa labas."
Ethan came home after. It's been two weeks and their back at their gigs, mas lalo lang silang naging busy. Sometimes hindi na ako nakakasama sa kanila dahil malayo ang pinupuntahan at madalas ay nakakapagod.
I remind myself not to exhaust my self too much since it's bad for me kaya madalas ay ako nalang ang nagbabantay kay Nica sa hospital. She hasn't been recharged yet dahil ang dami pang test na ginagawa sa kanya mas mainam daw na manatili muna siya sa hospital.
Sister Emily and Isabel visit sometimes pero hindi iyon madalas dahil hindi rin nila maiwan ang ibang bata sa bahay ampunan, it's understandable naman and it's not really a big deal since I am with Nica most of the times.
I loathed hospital ever since, ni ayokong nalalanghap ang partikular na amoy ng hospital. Ayokong nakakakita ng doctor at mga nurse, I hated the white hospital gown, the four corners and my hospital room.
I technically live here half of my life and when I tasted my freedom, I promised myself that I'm never gonna step my foot on any hospitals again in my life but well I guess not every promises meant to be done. We all break promises for someone in some days.
Tinapunan ko ng masamang tingin sina Flyn at Enjie na nasa gilid ko, nakikielam sa ginagawa ko. Masaya pa silang naghahalo sa whipped cream at nilalagyan ng kulay. Calvin on the other hand is seating on the island table singing a happy birthday song.
"Akala ko ba galit ka, Lilac?" Tuksong tanong sa akin ni Flyn.
I pointed my spatula at him. "Gusto mong magalit ako ulit?"
BINABASA MO ANG
Rhythms and Skies
General Fictionfierce, an underrated boy band who creates music and lives in La Glancè. What will happen if they meet Lilacaine Andreah Samson; an orphan, and have only two remaining years to live? this story revolves more about life, passion, and friends.
