Shot-4

                                    

                                          
Mahir
I went to our room and l opened the white sheet with shivering hands. And my world collapsed.
Hey Love!!
     I know you will be very angry on me!! I know l am not near you but l am not far away too... l am always there with you. You always tell me right!? That l reside in your heart. Feel me then you would know l am not far away. So don't be like those heart broken man. If l see you like that l'll come as a spirit and scare the shit out of you. Understand??
                                                                                                           Your Angel........
And there was a key with a paper tag.'Get to know the TRUTH!!'
I quickly rushed to the spare room she used and tried each and every cupboard and finally found the correct one. When l opened the cupboard some files fell over me. I took the hospital file. It had a letter and some reports. I took the reports and fresh tears made way from my eyes.
Patient: Bela Sharma
Disease: Cancer
Doctor: Vish Khanna
Information about the Disease,
Her cancer is in the last stage. She will most probably survive for a little more months.
With regards,
Vish Khanna.
That means Vis...sh is a Doctor!!? She knew all about it... Angel knew all about this but she didn't feel the need to tell me. I quickly opened the letter.
Hey Mahir!!
          I am very bad!! I should have told you that l am having cancer. Don't love me. But l was covered with the clouds of your love. I wasn't able to spill it out. I was scared...scared that you'll leave me. I'll loose your love. I would do anything to get your love. But maybe l wasn't meant to have children with you and become old with you. But l am filled. Filled with your love atleast for 8 months. You know the feeling of knowing your death is coming near and living...it's scared. You only think ' l am going to live on this earth just for a little more days ' that's what your mind shouts. That's why god didn't even tell us when we would die. Because we humans will just think about that. I know our love is incomplete. But l am completed with your love that you showed me in these 8 months!! I just had one wish on my death bed. I should say my last ' I Love you ' and kiss you and hopefully l will do it l guess. I told Vish to give you that paper once l leave you as l know about my Mahir he would not be in his right mind seeing my dead body and about Vish being a Doctor she knows all this from the time l have cancer she is my friend then my Doctor. She always stays with me because l always get some kind of issues due to cancer. Sorry for that too. l should have told you about Vish being my Doctor. But all l was scared for the loss of you which l wouldn't be able to afford in anyway. Now you might be wondering how come this girl had hair when she had cancer??
Well, l was wearing a wig and you was always gentle on me even though it was a Kiss or a Hug. 
When you went on your knees l was feeling like the queen of the world. I was happy that l am being loved and cherished by someone atleast till l die!! I was soooo happy that l would have just shouted. But Manners comes first!! And about the NGO l didn't want those kids too to be deprived of love like l was when l was born in to this world. So l built that NGO with my part time job money and would go once in a month due to studies. That's when l saw this handsome man named Mahir Seghal a gentlemen flirt. To tell you the truth l've never seen anyone like you. That's when l fell in love with you unknown to me. I tried hiding my feelings just by saying it is a crush but l couldn't. After hiding it for months I got to know after a while that l wouldn't be living on this earth for soo long. I tried running away from you and your love but then you proposed me. I should have told you Nooo!! But l couldn't say, seeing that love radiating eyes. I just couldn't stop myself from saying you YES!! You was cute though. Now see because of your cuteness it's a disadvantage for both you and me. So let's leave that. Whenever you ask about our marriage l know l say some reasons or change the topic because l don't want public to talk shit about you after l die!! But if l married you and die l am the happiest soul who died. I am very Sorry about that!!
Now about our little 8 month love story.
We was living in my apartment. You would show me all the love you have for me. Make me Jealous and alottt but during these 8 months what l have noticed in you is. That you couldn't stay without me just for a minute. I don't know how will you be living years without me. I am very badd!! I should have told you about my disease. It's my mistake.
Maybe The Last ' I Love You ' will keep you alive. I am noo more so don't think about me. Live your life in that material world and don't come too soon to me and Paradise. Come to me when God sends you. If you try to suicide l'll search someone in Paradise and live with him. Get that into you head Mr!! I just have a last wish...you have to smile as always and live your life. Just think me as your past or your part of life.
I am writing this letter sneeking out of your arms. I have to go soon because maybe this might be the last time l am gonna sleep hugging and cuddling you because l never know when would l die.