Chapter 19

                                    

                                          
Sometimes the people we love the most hurt us the most....
                          
I yarned feeling my bed to find it empty and cold "Ryker" I called after being met by an empty room. I sat up expecting pain to shoot through my back but nothing came "Woah he is good" the last time and my first time I had sex I was in pain for a month yet the sex wasn't even worthy like what I experienced yesterday night. Yesterday it wasn't sex, it was love making, it was connecting the two people who love each other dearly, feeling each other's bodies, tasting each other, it was a night to not forget. He even cleaned me, so thought full, I wonder how I didn't wake up with him cleaning me.
                          
I walked into the bathroom looking for him but I found it empty and dry, I walked downstairs and I remember how we kissed on the door, just the memory makes me hard. A smile plastered my lips remembering how he touched me, held me like I am his one and only. I just want to do it again, feel that again "Ryker" I called and again I was met with silence 'I guess he had work this early' he should have left a note behind or woke me up before leaving, we could have had some morning make out before saying goodbye.
                          
I moved into the kitchen making myself some coffee playing some music. I sipped my coffee missing Ryker already, what am I doing here when I could go see him at his work. That idea made me put my cup in the sink running back into my bedroom and into the bathroom when 'wake me up before you go-go' came on making me sing along "Wake me up before you go-go, don't leave me here hanging on like a yo-yo" He should have woke me up, even if I was sleeping, he should have left a note or something to inform me.
                          
Ryker Fox gave me the best night of my entire life where I felt everything, all my senses and emotions waking up. Feeling pleasure at the same time feeling desired and loved, not caring about my scars, kissing them down, loving them, caressing them like he treasure's them. I felt needed, wanted, desired, loved with every touch. We connected a lot. I finished showering going into my closet and really hating it. Nothing in this closet will make Ryker remember last night, I need something that will remind him of my ass last night so that he can be buried in it again maybe in his office
                          
I searched for the pants Bryan bought me but they are dirty, I didn't wash them "Argh" I groaned, he will not want me in these grandpa pants but they are the ones I am stuck with for today. I put on a shirt and jeans walking into the mirror "I need some shopping today" I picked up everything with my keys and I know I have to call a tow truck. I didn't charge my phone but after the events of last night, charging a phone was not even in my mind.
                          
I walked down stairs and the moment I left the building my car was there. I stopped almost not believing my eyes, I pulled out my keys walking over to it, I unlocked the door getting in, I put in the keys praying it works, whoever brought it back better have made it work and it did, I don't know how it was brought back when I had the keys but still 'everything is going my way' I buckled up driving to the CC's department.
                          
He is gay, he is gay or whatever but he is gay and depending on how hot and gorgeous he is and I am me. How can he sleep with me, he is like sooooo out of my league, I need to claim before he is stolen from me, he is hot and everyone will want him. I got out of the car getting into the CC's head quarters, going straight to the elevator that took me to Ryker's floor a smile never leaving my lips even when I looked at his boring floor but my heart was doing flips. I am so nervous to see him, I will definitely want a repeat of last night. I knocked on his door entering before he could tell me to enter "Morning Fox" I greeted staying at the door checking out the beauty and I can't believe I had THAT in my bed last night, too bad I couldn't find him in my bed this morning.
                          
I walked over to his side capturing his lips, my lips lingered onto his humming at the feeling that passed through me but he wasn't responding which made me pull back looking at him confused, he was also looking at me with the same confusion that I am sure I hold "What?" The worry in my voice has to be evident if I heard it too, didn't he like last night, am I coming onto him too strong, does he need space, he didn't enjoy as much as I did, all that is making me doubt.