Chapter 12 Mark POV

                                    

                                          
I had just gotten off the phone with Sophia and was dreading meeting Rebecca. We hadn't ended on the best of terms and I had been ok with never seeing her again, but here I was standing outside of a coffee shop waiting on her. When she finally showed up, she looked pale tinged with green and as if she hadn't slept in a while. 


                          
"Hey Mark"she said hesitantly "want to go in?"


                          
"Yea sure" I shrugged


                          
When we finally sat down with our drinks, she looked even more pale if that was even possible. 


                          
I let out a deep breathe. "What's going on Bec"


                          
Her eyes flashed up at me with fear. 


                          
"Ummm, please don't be mad at me."


                          
"What is it?" I growled


                          
"I-I'm pregnant" 


                          
I stomach dropped. There is no way she said what she just said. "What!"


                          
"I'm sorry Mark" she cried and buried her face in her hands "I'm two months pregnant" 


                          
Fuck. 


                          
"Jesus" I whispered half to myself, rubbing my face. " what are you going to do?"


                          
Her head whipped up and she stared at me as if I had two heads. "What am I going to do?!" She repeated as if I had said something insane.  "I'm keeping this baby!" Her voice starting to get louder " how dare you ask me if I'm getting an abortion!" 


                          
"Whoa whoa!" I threw my hands up " that's a logical question for multiple different reasons! Don't act like I'm dragging you into a clinic! We are twenty and still in school. We are not in a good place to raise a baby. Hence the question. Don't act like I won't support you with whatever you decided. You know me better than that."


                          
She burst into tears and just sat there sobbing. I didn't know what to do or say. I just sat there thinking 'fuck I'm going to be a dad' and then Sophia's face flashed in my head. Oh god, she is going to hate me and no way is she going to start something up with me now. I mentally groaned. I didn't think getting back with Becca would be the right decision. We were a mess at the end and a baby wasn't going to make that dumpster fire any better. My brain kept going a million miles a minute. I was barely able to process that Becca was trying to get my attention.


                          
"Mark" she said softly. 


                          
I shook my head trying to get my brain to focus. 


                          
"I'm going to keep the baby. I only found out a few days ago. I haven't told my parents yet. I was hoping you would come with me to tell them and that you would come with me to my appointment at the end of the week." 


                          
I hadn't even thought about telling our parents yet. Fuck. 


                          
"Yea I can do that. Let's wait until after the appointment to tell them anything though just to make sure we aren't jumping the gun."


                          
She sniffled, "okay" 


                          
It was starting to get late. I told her that I would be in touch. All I wanted to do was drink myself into oblivion tonight. 


                          
The next morning I woke up passed out sideways on my bed to my phone ringing. 


                          
Soph's face was on the screen. 


                          
"Hey" I answered 


                          
""Hey are you ok? You sound off. Are we still on for lunch or should I just bring you something?" She sounded worried


                          
" ugh I'm so sorry! I totally spaced." Fuck I had forgotten. "Yesterday was a mind fuck. Why don't you come over and we can order pizza or something. I've got to tell you everything that happened." I really don't want to have to tell her. 


                          
"Ok I'll see you in 15. Why don't you order something now." 


                          
"See you soon" I said as I hung up. I don't know how I am going to tell her about Becca. 


                          
I stumbled down the stairs when I heard her knock. 


                          
"Woah! Mark!What the hell happened?" She exclaimed as she saw my face


                          
I pulled her into a deep hug I just wanted to stay there, but I pulled away, "Ugh come inside. I'll tell you all about it." 


                          
I fell on the bed as I pulled her down on top of me. She smelled so good. I groaned when he fingers ran through my hair


                          
"What happened?" she asked


                          
 "Please don't be mad" I murmured into her neck


                          
"Oh goodness. I can't ever be that mad at you." She reassured me. She is an angel and I'm the worst. 


                          
I rolled over and buried my face into her middle. 


                          
"She's pregnant" I admitted


                          
"the fuck?" 


                          
I looked up at her, "I know. I know. She said she just found out and is a couple months along. She said that its mine"


                          
"Are you ok?" 


                          
"No I'm in shock. I don't know that I plan to do. She wants to get back together. Either way I need to support this baby whether we are together or not. I'm so sorry that all of this is sprung on you." I hated this so much. We were just starting something that could legitimately be great. I ruined all of it before it could even start. 


                          
"Don't worry about me. I will support you with whatever you want even if it means we can't be together. You need to do what's best for you and that baby."


                          
"Ugh why are you so amazing. I hate that this is happening. We were just starting something. I just don't know what to do. My parents are going to kill me."  I started to tear up. She just let me lay there with her while she rubbed my head.


                          
"I doubt they are going to kill you. I feel like after the initial shock, they are going to be excited for a grand baby." 


                          
"Maybe. They are still going to be disappointed in me." I started to cry a little bit harder. " please don't leave me alone. I'm terrified."


                          
"Of course I won't leave you." She assured me 


                          
We stayed liked that for the rest of the afternoon. And I passed out in her arms. I woke up to her fingers running through my hair and hearing her whisper my name. 


                          
"Mmmm don't stop rubbing my head" I whispered. 


                          
She laughed softly. "I ordered food. You should get up so you can eat." ,


                          
" I don't wanna" I whined jokingly. 


                          
"Don't make me start tickling you to get you up" 


                          
 "don't you dare!" I yelled looking up at her with one eye opened.  


                          
She started to walk her fingers down my shoulder to my side. I rolled her over in an instant and pinned her arms over her head and her body underneath me. 


                          
My breathe hitched at the position that we were in. She looked beautiful and all I could think about was kissing her. Before I even realized it, I was placing soft kisses on the corner of her mouth.  


                          
"Breathe" I whispered as I kissed down her neck. 


                          
I heard her take a shallow breathe.  


                          
"Mark" she gasped, " we shouldn't do this"


                          
"I know" I said between kisses " it's the only thing keeping my brain from melting down. You're a light in all of this shit surrounding me." 


                          
I melted as she kissed me back and was able to relax in her arms, falling into a dreamless sleep.