An: this chapter is basically something that provides a glimpse of what really is happening in Veronica's mind. All the darkness in her life and how she really feels about everything. Ot felt so sad writing about this.
Hermione heard something break in Veronica's room and hurried there. Opening her door, she saw a broken vase on the floor.
She looked at veronica and said "Veronica what did you do?"
Veronica, in anger had grabbed the closest thing next to her and threw it across the room, hitting the wall. After seeing the vase break, she left out a shuddered breath trying to calm down, when suddenly her mother barged in.
Veronica scoffed "oh no, veronica are you okay? Are you hurt? Isn't this the first thing you should say to me after you see me? But no... All you and father care about is money, money and money! Don't worry mom. It was just a VASE. Nothing expensive"
Hermione looked at veronica as if she uad grown 2 heads. "What the hell is wrong with you?"
Veronica laughed "you will stoop to any level for getting father out of jail. But guess what mom? I still won't be signing the like stupid document. I want to see just how low can you and father get. So you can tell the lawyer to get the hell out as i won't be signing any papers " she said as she stormed off out of her room, leaving Hermione gaping.
Veronica left her home she felt like escaping. She wants to hide, for once in her life she felt as if she had no direction in her life, it would only be revolving around the sins of her parents.
She started to mindlessly walk and to wander around unaware of her destination. Her mind was clouded with desparation, with grief and with anger. Was she destined to fave this cruelty alone? Why didn't she have anyone? Someone who could share her pain. Someone who could save her from drowning.
People had always thought that she was strong. She was brave, she didn't need anyone. They didn't know they only see the tip of the iceberg. They don't see that the she's the ship that has hit the iceberg and is drowning. And she knows. She knows that if she tried, that if she actually tried to be honest about her feelings, to be honest about how her family is dying she would have jughead and betty standing there with her. Who could stop her from also perishing with her family.
She was a hypocrite. She got angry at jughead thag he didn't trust her. But, really, does she really have the right to question him? To get angry at him when she's practically lying to him about her wellbeing almost all the time? Can she actually bd trusted? Friendship is a two way street. And she knows now. That jughead and betty really do trust her. They do think of her as their friend, so why? Why can't she just tell them?
But she can't. She can't bring them to see the mess her life actually is. She wants to protect them from the darkness of her family. She wants to protect them from herself. Her life's a black hole, if someone dares to see what's in it, they get sucked into darkness, into oblivion forever, and how could she do that to her friends?
And she also knows her friends, especially jughead has faced some darkness in his life and somewhere he would understand, but allowing him to see what's going on, allowing him to actually see her bare soul is frightening for her. She's been alone all her life, its hard for her to actually let them in and be vulnerable.
And she doesn't. She doesn't really deserve their kindness. Their friendship. Because of her family, Riverdale is tearing apart. If only they didn't come here. Because of her, the three childhood friends aren't on good terms. Because of her parents jughead lost the drive in. Because if ger father ethel's father tried to commit suicide. In one way or another she's connected to all this.
She mindlessly started to sing a song, and couldn't help but think, how she could relate to the song so much.
"It's a quarter after one.
I'm all alone and I need you now.
Said I wouldn't call, but I lost all control
And I need you now.
And I don't know how I can do without
I just need you now."
She's alone, and at this moment all she really wants is jughead to be by her side. You know? Just be there, silently giving his support where she could just sit by him and just not talk.
"And I wonder if I ever cross your mind.
For me it happens all the time"
She didn't realise this, but she only thinks about him when she's happy, when she's sad. He only comes in her mind and can't help wonder, if its the same with him? But she shook that thought away. Jughead likes betty. Thinking about this she felt as if someone has just stabbed her in her heart. It hurts. So much.
"It's a quarter after one.
I'm all alone and I need you now.
And I said I wouldn't call
But I'm a little drunk and I need you now.
And I don't know how I can do without
I just need you now.
I just need you now.
Oh baby I need you now."
She let's out a tear. She couldn't control it anymore. She just wanted to cry. She's been holding so much in. She's drunk on her emotions that keep threatening to come out. She really needs someone to be there.
"jughead where are you?" She finally lets out a whimper
She stopped and looked around to see where she was ans was surprised to see that somehow she has ended up at the drive in.
Seeing the drive inn, empty, barren makes her feel more distraught. Its because of her family that its like this. She just goes inside the room, where jughead used to stay and slid down the wall, sitting on the floor. Not caring about how dirty it was. She just put her head on her knees and cried.
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