One day I will be happy 
Learn how to love me be happy
Make friends with myself and be happy
I'm gonna make it
One day
                          
I'm a little bit angry
Gotta calm myself down
Take a breath
Don't wanna drown
                          
Too scared to fall asleep
These dreams just haunting me
Gripping sheets my body freezes can't keep breathing 
Wake up can't feel my hands where do I stand 
Because 
                          
One day I will be happy
Learn how to love me be happy 
Make friends with myself and be happy 
I'm gonna make it 
One day..
                          
She finished finally opening her eyes to look at the elder majorly overwhelmed in shock as she paced forwards to pull her into her embrace with a side cheek kiss that felt a bound more than comforting, the words so expressive and telling the elder didn't even need to ask of an explanation as she pull away with a smile
                          
"That was beautiful baby.."
                          
"You think?"
                          
"Yes! You're voice is incredible Camz? How come you've never sang to me before?"
                          
The girl blushed, scraped her hair back with a smile as she returned the almost finished joint to her lips dragging back with a deep breath filling her lungs now feeling thankfully more relaxed than ever
                          
"I guess it's always just been my thing.. my shower pass time so to speak!"
                          
"Well I want to hear it more! It's beautiful!"
                          
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The next day Camila awoke after having what seemed to be the best sleep in weeks, Lauren's little medicated night routine sending her into an oblivion of blank dreaming that left her more than refreshed as she flutter open her eyelids to notice the elder now walking beside her bed with a cup of fresh made coffee
                          
"Thanks, how come you're up already?"
                          
"It's like 10am baby.. you slept right through.."
                          
Camila widened her eyes in shock not thinking she'd ever be able to sleep in that late as the usual wake up call bellowed at around 6am.. her girlfriend only happy to see her however as she sank down to sit beside her on the bed using her fingertips to scrape back the stray hair from her blush creased cheeks 
                          
"Holy shit.. I should have been up to help you with the kids!"
                          
"Don't worry! We've been playing Barbie's and we've painted pictures.. they've all been pretty chilled out, it's crazy how much they vibe from your moods.."
                          
"That makes me feel guilty.. I don't want to be the reason they act out all the time.. it's not fair on them"
                          
Lauren only looked back at the girl with a furrowed empathetic brow, her palm smoothing over her collar bone with a gentle caressing touch, the sleepy eyes in front begging for reassurance In her fragile phase of emotion
                          
"It's not your fault baby.. they love you and they ride off of your energy so it's just a reality.. they're resilient kids and as I've always promised I will never let anyone hurt any of you ok?"