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"Come on Jaeee" Sophie groaned quietly as she pulled the almost nineteen year old boy outside the door. "I don't want to- it was a bad idea- fuck I'm so stupid! I can't do this! Let's just go back home-" "Jaden shut the fuck up!" She groaned and pulled her bag up the stairs. "Soph, I really can't! What am I supposed to say?! Oh hey I just wanted to disappear but- don't worry- I'm back now!" He said putting his head in his hands. "Jaden, please... We both know that you'll feel better when you see her, hm?" She said and he looked down. He decided to just nos, although he knew that it would either make him feel better or completely destroy him. "Fine-" "Perfect!" She said knocking on the door. Jaden panicked and staples away from the door, so she wouldn't see him. "What the fuck?" She mouthed at him. He just run his hand through his hair. 
                          
"He- Soph? What are you doing here?..." Isabella asked confused. Jadens face dropped as he heard her voice, realizing that it didn't help him... "I brought you this stupid mother fucker" she said pulling Jaden in her point of view, who was now just looking at the ground. "Oh my god, Jae!" She cried hugging him the tightest she could. Jadens eyes started watering as the girl kept mumbling things in his chest. He just took a deep breath before snapping back into reality. He looked down at the crying girl and slowly placed his hands on her waist. She sighed holding him tighter, thinking that he would hug her back, once again. She didn't want him to stay away from her, she knew that he wouldn't be okay if he did. Instead of hugging her back, Jaden softly pushed her away, making her look up. He looked in her eyes for a second, before his eyes completely filled with tears, not letting him see at all. He let go off her and started quickly walking to their room as tears poured out of his eyes. He knew he looked ridiculous, like a little girl getting out of a fight. He wiped his tears away, trying to stop crying. He didn't want to cry, once again. He didn't want to show that he was hurt. He didn't want to show that he was weak without her. He closed the door behind him and laid down on the bed, under the covers. He started heavy breathing as he run his fingers through his hair. He just stared at the ceiling, what he has been doing the last at least 15 hours. 
                          
He heard the door open and just turned around, his back facing the quietly crying girl. He took her pillow in his hands, holding it tight. It was a thing he had been doing when he was young. Hugging pillows. He knew it was weird and everyone would make fun of him if they knew, but it was honestly the last thing he worried about. Isabella broke seeing him like that, she wanted to hug him, but she knew he would push away. She wanted to make him talk to her, but she knew that he wouldn't. She wanted to kiss him, but she knew that it would break him more. So she just stared. She kept heavy breathing while tears poured out of her eyes. She slowly walked up to him and kicked her shoes off, lying in the bed with him. He kept his face in the pillow, not wanting to look at her. "Hey..." She whispered while softly playing with his hair. He took a shaky breath and looked down. She looked down too and then looked at him again. "How are you?" She asked and he shot her a glare making her look down. She softly pulled her pillow out of her hands, but he tried to pull it back to himself. She sighed and pushed it again, finally taking it out of his hands. She lay down and got closer to him, wrapping her hands around his torso. Jaden decided not to push her away again. He didn't want her to feel that he doesn't want her there, cause he did want her there. He actually needed her there... But he couldn't let himself show her how he actually felt. 
                          
The girl pulled him closer, showing him that she wanted him to hug her back. He sad smiled at himself and slowly pulled her close to him. She pulled him even closer and broke down uncontrollably crying. He pulled her closer and started playing with her hair to relax her. He didn't know why she was crying. He couldn't understand. She was the one who broke him, he was the one that had to cry. But he didn't know that she actually didn't want to break up with him... He pushed away and pulled her higher, so they were now face to face. He looked in her eyes as he softly wiped away her tears with his thumb. She softly sad smiled at him and he sighed looking down.