cherry wine

                                    

                                          
I'm gonna start to add the songs that I use in my chapters here at the beginning :)
Also !Smut warning and mention of scars!
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Emily's pov:
You woke up to the sun hitting your face. You groaned and rolled over trying to go back to sleep. As you rolled over you felt Y/N pressed against your back her arms hugging you from behind. 
                          
You carefully loosened her grip on you and slid off the bed before making your way to the kitchen. You decided to make some pancakes since you knew Y/N had a bad day yesterday so you thought you might make it a tiny bit better by making her breakfast. 
                          
You opened the cabinet and reached for the pancake mix. You poured the mix into a mixing bowl and added the rest of the ingredients mixing it all together. You prepared a pan and poured the pancake mixture onto the pan and cooked the batter. 
                          
When the pancakes were finished you divided them onto two plates and diced some fresh strawberries to put on each plate along with a drizzle of maple syrup. You put the plates on the kitchen table and went back to the bedroom to wake Y/N. 
                          
You got back in bed and laid down besides Y/N facing her. You tucked a strand of hair behind her ear and kissed her forehead. 
                          
"Good morning" you whispered softly. 
                          
She opened her eyes slowly trying to adjust to the light. 
                          
"Morning" she replied with a raspy voice. 
                          
You leaned in and kissed her lips softly. She smiled into the kiss moving closer to you. You cupped her face gently. She got on top of you and giggled as she kissed your neck. 
                          
"Are you feeling any better?" You asked as she removed her lips from your neck and sat up. 
                          
"I always feel better when I'm with you" she replied with a smile. 
                          
"As much as I like to hear that I still think we should talk about all of this later" you said sitting up and looking at her. 
                          
She sighed "I know" 
                          
"I almost forgot I made pancakes" you said giving her a smile. 
                          
"Wait really?" She asked her eyes lighting up a bit. 
                          
"Let's go eat" you said giggling. 
                          
You two sat down at the kitchen table to eat the pancakes you made. You both avoided the topic of yesterday for now but you knew you had to bring it up sooner or later and it wasn't going to be an easy discussion. 
                          
You were both stuffed after finishing up the breakfast. She helped clean up and after you were done you went to sit down on the couch. You patted the seat next to you telling her to join you. 
                          
She took a seat on the couch facing you. She tried to avoid eye contact but you didn't let her look away. 
                          
"Y/N we need to talk about yesterday" you said reaching for her hand and holding it carefully not to hurt her palms. 
                          
"I know Em..." she sighed. 
                          
It went quiet for awhile before you took a deep breath and started talking.
                          
"Why did you hurt yourself?" You asked carefully not knowing how she would respond.
                          
"Do we really need to talk about that" she said looking away. 
                          
"I think we do Y/N" you said lifting her chin so she would look at you. 
                          
She took a deep breath. 
                          
"Honestly it's not that simple to explain" she sighed. 
                          
"Try" you said softly. 
                          
"My mom just has that effect on me I guess. She said some things and got in my head like she always does and seeing her after all this time just brought back a lot of bad memories from my childhood and that kinda triggered me I guess. When you feel that amount of emotional pain it's just easier to turn it into physical pain instead, it's more bearable. I know it isn't healthy but it does help for a moment. Honestly I didn't realize I even did it until it was too late" she said tears picking at her eyes.