he's not just a bestfriend anymore.
dream. clay. the boy i call my bestfriend. they boy that i'd go to if anything was to happen to me. the person my parents would call if they thought i needed someone. i don't hold anything back from him. but when kacey said that her and dream were dating was the moment when i felt my heart shatter into small pieces. i want him emotionally.
kacey
george?
georgenotfound?
george.
hey are u okay?
call me i want to explain.
i can't breathe. the back of my throat won't open. my phone is still sitting on the bed and i try to reach for it. my hands are shaking so badly and i can't even see the screen. i go to my phone app and click dreams name. it's in my favorites. i still can't breathe and i can't even hold my phone very well. the phone falls out of my hand. i pull my knees to my chest as the phone rings.
"hello?" i hear a soft calm voice say. i try and calm down enough to even get out a simple word but it just makes me freak out more. i cannot breathe.
"george? is that you breathing? are you okay?" i hear the boys growing concern. i try and choke out a yes but it comes out as a sob.
"oh my god, george! what the fuck!" he says fearfully. i see another call coming in from dream, this time it's a facetime. should i answer? i mean i'm the one who called him. do i want him to actually see me? i click the green answer button. immediately i see a blonde boy, his beauty mesmerizes me. his green eyes are big and full of fear. i'm still wheezing from the panic attack.
"george! oh my uh... name 5 things to see." i try and choke out words but i still can't. it comes out as a sob.
"okay, that's okay, uh point to the green things in your room." he slowly starts naming colors and telling me to point to them. my breathing slows down but i'm still shaking excessively. dream notices my breathing is calmer.
"hey buddy, you're okay." he says in a certain way that makes me instantly feel safe. my face is red from the tears but they've stopped now. i let out a small forced smile at him. he smiles back, a genuine one.
"hi." i say quietly. his face relaxes.
"what's going on george."
"take your time." he adds.
i let out a big breath. what's going on? you're dating someone and didn't tell me. i just realized that i have feelings for you. i realized that i was part of lgbtq. i don't even know what yet.
"you're dating kacey?" i ask. he gives a confused look.
"no? is that what this is about?"
what? he's not dating her? what the hell?
"uh, it kinda had something to do with uh this i guess but you aren't dating her?"
"no. we are not dating." he assures.
why would she lie to me? she caused this. she caused me to sit on my bed for half an hour shaking and not being able to breathe. she caused the hurt in my heart.
"did she tell you that we were?" he says angrily. i know the anger isn't directed at me but he's kind of scary when he's upset. he sees the uneasiness in my small nod and relaxes his face again.
"you're okay george. you're safe. nothings going to hurt you, i love you. i have to go okay? i'll text you."
"okay. bye dream." he hangs up. why would she lie to me?
kacey
dream called me and said u had a panic attack?! i'm so sorry!! i didn't mean to hurt u.
george
did you tell him anything about my situation?
kacey
no
i'm so sorry george.
george
wdym you didn't mean to hurt me? i couldn't breathe. you set off another level of pain that i didn't even know i could experience.
kacey
i'm sorry. i did it because i thought it would tell u if u had feelings for him or not. idky i thought it would be a good idea.
george
oh.
kacey
ik, it was dumb i'm sorry
george
whatever
what did dream say when he called you?
kacey
he yelled at me. he told me that i shouldn't lie about things like that and told me how much he cares about u. he told me u called him and u couldn't breathe and were shaking. then he told me to stay away from u for a little bit. he'd probably be mad i'm talking to u rn.
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wow. he cares way more than i thought he would. kaceys idea to get me to realize i had feelings for dream did work but i would have preferred a different way of presenting it.
AUTHOR
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