(he lowk looks like his mom in this ^ and i love it 🥺🥺)
nessa's pov:
i was lying on my boyfriend's bed, feeling like my uterus was being ripped out of me with a knife. where was he? playing among us on his computer. men. "babbeeee" i called, trying to get his attention. "yeah?" he replied, not even looking back at me. "you said you would come and lie down with me" i complained, just wanting to be in his arms. "give me 5 babe, i'll just finish" he told me, smiling back at me.
my mood swing kicked in, making me furious with the brunette boy in front of me. "fuck this" i mumbled before trying as hard as i could to get up. as i was leaving i felt a hand wrap around my wrist, spinning me around. "where are you going?" he asked me as he towered over my petite frame. "home" i said, my voice cracking, tears threatening to spill. "what? why?" he questioned, furrowing his eyebrows.
"ARE YOU- you know what? no. you don't get to call me over here to see you and leave me for your stupid ass game. i know where i'm not wanted and it's cRyStAl clear that you're preoccupied so i'll just make it easy for you and get out of your way. you're obviously too busy to hang out with me so maybe if i'm lucky, my fucking PILLOW will let me hug it" i huffed, yanking my wrist out of his grip and leaving, tears flowing down my face.
i ran as fast as i could, ignoring the many voices of the sway boys calling after me. i unlocked my car, getting in and slamming the door. i turned on my music drove, far away from the mess i had just made with the one person who understood me. fuck. i'm an idiot. i parked in my space in the underground parking lot of the apartment building but didn't get out. i laid my head against the steering wheel as my cries became uncontrollable and soon turned into sniffles.
after a while, i went up to my apartment, showering and getting in bed. i couldn't sleep but instead turned my led lights to red and stared up at the ceiling, regretting everything i had just said to josh. i had pushed away the only boy who had been there with me through everything. it was like i wanted to punch him for practically ignoring me the whole evening but i also wanted to run back to sway and apologise, in desperate need of his hugs.
i decided to post on my finsta, wanting to release all of my pent up emotions but in a way that wasn't harmful to anyone. at this point there were no tears left and my cramps were killing me. i lied. there were more tears - too many for me to stop.
@bessanarrett
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@bessanarrett i hate it here.
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josh's pov:
shit. i didn't realise how badly i fucked up. my anger rose and i shouted at myself, throwing my headset on the floor. "FUCK" i said to myself, i ran a hand through my hair as i sat on the edge of the bed, contemplating giving her some time or rushing over there right now. i grabbed my keys and drove to her apartment which luckily was only a 10 minute drive as the roads were empty.
she had given me a key, meaning that i didn't have to knock. part of me knew that if i knocked she wouldn't answer the door so i let myself in, locking the front door behind me and practically running to her bedroom. i saw her lying down, in the background of her tears was her spotify playlist. i had heard these songs many times, recognising the playlist to be her go-to sad songs.
my heart shattered at the sight of the girl in front of me, sobbing into her pillow. i took my shoes off, replacing the pillow with my body and wrapping my arms around her waist, pulling her close to me. we stayed in silence, her arms snaking around my neck, "pain" playing softly on her speaker. "i'm sorry" she whispered, her voice noticeably breaking.
i let her continue, not wanting to interrupt. "i'm sorry i was such a bitch to you earlier. i shouldn't have done that, i was just so angry and my cramps were a pain in the ass and you didn't deserve that." she apologised, looking up at me as her hands went through my hair. "don't sweat it" i told her, making both of us laugh at my word choices.
AUTHORS NOTE 🤎 sorry i haven't updated in a hot minute - busy days for me also THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU for 1k reads on this book - you don't know how much that means to me 🥺🥺
can we just take a moment to take in how cute the front row of this picture is tho - like come oN 🦋🦋🥺🥺😌😌
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