45. T O N Y

                                    

                                          
It's been two weeks since that extraordinary night with Nathan, I couldn't get my mind off it 
He pleasured me to the core, worshipped my body and made love to me passionately
He made me happy 
But he had been distant after the phone call he had the next day, he literally left the room to continue the call elsewhere
What was he hiding? I never hid anything from him
He spent his days in the office working late and we only met four times these past two weeks
His actions gave me insecurities
It gave me thoughts that maybe he just wanted to smash then disappear, that he used me just like last time
But I'm sure it's not it
I tried convincing myself that he's busy but I couldn't stop myself from being paranoid
I was currently driving into the Knight Mansion driveway
It was my first time being here after leaving heartbroken because of the second son of the Knights
We were together now but I don't know if we were okay
I wasn't in my best mood but i came anyway since Patrick wanted me here so badly
We'd been talking alot on the phone lately, he asked me so many questions too about well me, I figured maybe he wanted to get me the best gift
I giggled at that
He requested I come today so I did even though I felt really tired and just wanted to sleep all day
I had been feeling weird lately, feeling tired and my breasts had swelled up causing them to hurt everytime I touched them 
My period was probably approaching
I'm just sad Nathan wasn't here to notice these small details, he literally didn't know what was happening in my life right now 
I got out of my car slowly with my big packet of Vinegar and onion with salt flavoured Lays in my hands
Memories flooded my mind as I looked around 
Where I was standing now was where I said goodbye to Patrick when I couldn't stand being here anymore
I looked behind me 
Flashback
"Hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii Jenjeeeen" Patrick shouted
His head was out of the window looking at me as the car moved passed by
I grinned immediately I saw him
End of flashback
I looked at the steps
Flashback
"Who gave you this?"
What?
"I bought it"
He chuckled looking at me with disbelief
"With who's money? Have you been stealing?"
End of flashback
This place had so many memories, good and bad, the kind nobody would believe considering how Nathan and I are together now
There was an odd temporary fence on the field 
Wassup with that?
I shrugged and climbed the steps lazily walking to the front door
It opened immediately I reached revealing an ecstatic Patrick
"Jenjeeeen!" He shouted in excitement as I kneeled down
Seeing him now brightened my day
He threw himself on me and I groaned silently at the sudden impact on my chest area
I hugged Patrick back and broke the hug
"I missed you Jenjen" he said
I smiled at him and lightly pinched his little nose
"I missed you too PatPat" I grinned
He got away from me and I stood up finding his mother a few feet from us smiling
"Hey Aunt" I walked to her and she hugged me for a few seconds when I got close
"How're you?" 
"I'm .....okay" I said hesitantly and smiled
"Hmm"
We both walked to the living room while I talked to Patrick
We sat on the couch and Patrick ran off 
"He's really energetic today" I heard Mrs Knight chuckle
"I can see" I chuckled
We went silent for a while and I took that opportunity to eat my Lays
"Have you talked to him?" She asked cautiously
I was silent, I didn't want to lie to her but I couldn't mess up my plan now since my birthday was only a week and three days away
"I get it you don't want to talk about it I just can't help it" she said all too quickly
"It's okay I understand"
"So are you seeing someone?" 
"Umm yeah" I smiled shyly looking down
"Oh" I noticed disappointment in her tone "You don't seem to look happy, is everything okay?"
"Not really" I sighed "we haven't really been talking like we used to and I'm trying to find a reason for him and convince myself that everything is okay but I just can't help but be paranoid about it-" I looked at her and just realized how weird this was for her
She might have been thinking this was about another man and I get how uncomfortable this might be for her considering her son and I were not in a good place according to her
"I'm sorry i-"
"You should talk to him" she gave me a weak smile
"I don't know, he just seems unreachable" I said sadly
I put my hand in the packet of Lays to find no chips left
I sighed
"What's the matter?"
"Nothing...just ran out of Lays" I showed her the green packet "I just need another one I've been craving this for a week now" I said "and other foods too" I mumbled as I looked into my hand bag
"Food cravings?" 
"Yeah" I looked at her opening another packet 
"Right....well I wanted you to help me shop some clothes if that's okay with you?"
"Sure" I grinned
"Patrick and I are already ready so we can leave now if that's okay"
"I just gotta go pee first then we'll be on our way" I said excited
I hadn't really gone out after I finished my final exams last week
I was just home sleeping and eating all day 
I needed this to distract me from everything
It was going to be fun
~Charlie