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George's POV
                          
GeorgeNotFound Today at 11:21 PM
i think Christie is cheating on me
i think she's cheating with her soulmate
                          
a weight that i didn't know was covering me seems to get carried off of me like a blanket after i type those words. a slow symphony, familiar stringed tune, echoing nostalgia fills my mind. i hum along to it, tethered to one piece of my old self. the person who didn't care about soulmates and what it meant for my relationship. hanging on by a thread of my previous existence is a crumbled and broken George. she lied to me. she told me that we were soulmates and it was such fate that we dated despite knowing that we were meant to be by the gods above. she hid behind that lie for so long. how long ago did she know that i wasn't hers? and why didn't she tell me?
                          
is she cheating on me? am i overreacting to all the little signs? i lay back on my mattress, face parallel to the ceiling, ticking off my fingers above me. 2,3,4,5. 5 weeks since Christie had been over at my place. and she's been at Julie's too many times to count, sleeping over and hanging out and going to the mall. she didn't even tell me she would be at the mall. is it a sign? especially since they're soulmates?
                          
and if i do brush it off and forget about this nagging feeling, what if i was right and she is cheating on me? then i'll have wasted my time looking dumb and ignorant while Christie was cheating with her best friend behind my back.
                          
but if i confront it and i'm wrong, she could get mad. really mad.
                          
Christie mad is not something you'd want to deal with. not only is she verbal, but she's physical. and she's strong when she's angry. the time that i missed our date, she threw a dictionary at me. i never missed our dates again.
                          
ice chills run down my back at the thought of being single again. at the possibility that i could be right, and confronting Christie will give her leverage to leave me alone and sad in the dust while she's in a happy relationship with her soulmate. she would get her way. and where would that land me? miserable and lonely, nothing tying me to the social life i've built at our school?
                          
but on the other hand..
                          
i still have my soulmate. and i'm now sure that it isn't Christie.
                          
my hands don't quiver this time, as i pick up the pen on my desk. they're steady and sure.
                          
hey. i'm George. let's meet up.
                          
a droplet of guilt paints the inside of my stomach, but is overpowered with a wash of victory. two can play at this game, Christie.
                          
"does it matter if it's not you? we'll stay together no matter what, George. don't be dumb. and if it isn't you, i'm not just gonna break up with you."
                          
she said she wrote to me. she nodded and agreed when i told her about how she finally wrote to me. but she lied. i know it now, since she isn't even trying to hide her soulmate. fun fact, bad things come with being the most popular girl in school. people are against you. people know gossip about you. shit gets spilled.
                          
(an hour earlier)
                          
Unknown Number
you're Christie's boyfriend, right?
                          
george
uh. yeah, why

                          
Unknown Number
oh shit. have you heard?
                          
george
heard what

                          
Unknown Number
oh my god. you don't know. this is insane
ur not Christie's soulmate. 
                          
george
ok i don't know who the fuck you are 
but
you get no right to tell me about my relationship