Ch 77

                                    

                                          
Live Your Life
                          
The long post was written by a woman, her online name was “森林沒有木” sēnlín méiyǒu mù. In her post she wrote:
                          
She also had a dream. Her dream was to be a pianist, but dreams were just that, dreams. Her family had little money and she had never touched a piano in her life. Only ever seen it on television or in a shop window. She never dared walk close and touch one because she could never afford it. She was just a waitress in a restaurant.
                          
She had compiled piano pieces on her computer, and everyday she listened to them imagining her fingers dancing across the piano, making these wonderful melodies.
                          
She had a boyfriend she had been in love with for six years. He got into university while she did not. He had to go to another city, while she stayed behind. His family’s conditions were also not good. She worked as a waiter in a high end restaurant, but the pay wasn’t good. She lived frugally to send money to her boyfriend, so he could study without worries. (Zuben: AKA a foolish move) Her boyfriend promised her that when he graduated, and found a good job, he would take care of her. (Zuben: That old chestnut)
                          
She happily waited for that day to come.
                          
However, as the days went by, they had less and less contact. Their calls became shorter because they stopped knowing what to say to each other. They no longer had things in common except for their past. She did not know his classmates; he did not know her colleagues. Soon she realised that if she didn’t call him, he would not call her. And when she did, she noticed his conversations were short and perfunctionary. Even though he still told her he loved her, she felt there was something wrong. Although, it was only speculation, she dared not ask if there was something, or she would just blame herself for being suspicious.
                          
He always asked her for money. He said his dorm was noisy and he wanted to move out, so she should help. Then he asked for money to buy a new laptop. (Zuben: What an idiotic woman)
                          
When she went to visit him, he was attentive to her but she still felt like there was something off.
                          
She started paying attention to the Xiu’s activities, because to the promise to bring people’s dreams to life. Although many people thought that dreams have been co-opted by big business to deceive people, and this event was a publicity stunt, she still liked to pay attention to it. When the news that Tingting Yuli 413 was a black box operation came out, she had been at home on a day off; she was playing on her computer and trying to get through to her boyfriend. She had been angry about the news.
                          
Some of the anger she felt was towards her boyfriend. She had been getting more and more suspicious of him at the time. She would try to catch him online, but he was always absent. When she called him, took a long time to answer and when he did there was no enthusiasm.
                          
She thought that she was being deceived, but the post about Tingting Yuli made her feel even more so. She really wanted to call her boyfriend and ask him what was going on and whether he still loved her.
                          
But she did not dare ask because she felt the question would ruin everything and there would be no turning back. But her anger had nowhere to go, so she laid it at TingtingYuli413’s door. A lady caught in an affair incited her her sense of justice. She rained abuse on TingtingYuli413, and she felt she had been justified.
                          
However, Tingting Yuli 413 did not reply. There was nothing. Her fans came to her aid, the official statement from Xiu followed. She read it, and felt that the statement made sense. She eventually began to feel sorry for herself, she actually needed to go and attack a stranger to make herself feel better.