Panic

                                    

                                          

Warrens POV 
                          
Ugh! I can't even concentrate on my damn homework! I messed up so bad with her. I didn't even get to tell her the truth. Now she'll never believe me. I sighed and ran a hand through my messy hair. Damn it! I threw my pencil at the wall in anger. I put my papers down and got up. I started to pace. Damn it. I fucked up pretty bad. She probably wouldn't even want to see me right now. I get it, but all I want to do is apologize and tell her the truth. I should have never agreed to taking Layla to the prom, even if it is to make her stupid brother jealous. I sighed and ran a hand through my hair again. 

                          
I miss him. I miss seeing her beautiful face. I miss seeing her beautiful smile. Her beautiful baby blue eyes. Damn it. Ever since I've met her I've grown soft and corny. But I didn't care, I fell deeply in love with her and there's no going back now. Not when my heart was hers. But she'll probably never give me the time of day again. And that's my fault. I sighed and sat down on the edge of my bed. I missed hanging out with her. I missed laughing with her. I just miss talking with her, even if it's the stupidest things to talk about. I miss her. 

                          
If only she would let me tell her the truth. Then maybe she'll give me a second chance. I sighed again, who am I kidding? I don't deserve a second chance. Even my dad didn't want to give me a second chance. Everyone just ends up leaving me. I laid back and just looked at the ceiling. All I could think about was her smile, her laugh, her eyes. She was perfect, and out of my league. "I miss you", I whispered softly. I didn't know how long I laid there for, but it grew too boring. But soon enough I found out that I couldn't move. No matter how hard I tried to move, I couldn't move a muscle. My eyes grew in fear. I grunted from how hard I tried to move. I could feel my heart pounding against my chest. 
                          
What was happening to me?! 
                          
Why couldn't I move? 

                          
I hate to admit it. But I'm scared! 

                          
What the hell is happening to me? Why couldn't I move? 

                          
Okay Warren. Don't freak out, don't freak out. Okay, I'm freaking out! I don't know what to do and I'm scared out of my damn mind! I started to breathe heavily. I felt as if I couldn't breathe on my own. I tried to suck in as much as I could. I think I was having a panic attack or something. What would Allison do? What would Allison do? That's right! 
                          
What would Allison do! 

                          
I know exactly what she would do. Any time she would freak out, she would hum to herself. She would just gently hum to herself. She would calmly breathe in and out. In and out. Bringing her breathing down. 
                          
But for a second there, it sounded like she was humming in my ear. A gentle tone. A beautiful melody. It started to calm me down. I started to breathe in and out. Bringing my breathing down to normal. I brought my hand to my chest, I could feel my heart beginning to slow down. In a normal beat. I was calming down. Like that one time in the bus, I could remember it clearly, just like it was yesterday. I had my head laying gently on her shoulder, her fingers running through my hair. And she was humming in my ear softly. It's what calmed me all day that day. And that's what calmed me right now. 
                          
"I love her", I whispered softly to no one but myself. I was in love with her. She was the only one to keep my calm. To calm me down when I was angry. The only one. She's the one I love and I can't deny it. I've never denied it. I'm in love with Allison Stronghold. And she hates my guts. I sighed and ran my fingers through my hair again. "Great. Just great. Just what I need, fall in love with someone that hates my guts, great going Warren, great going", I mumbled to myself. I shook my head and sighed. "Just what I need", I whispered again. I couldn't deny the growing wetness on my cheeks. I couldn't deny the growing stream of tears that flowed down from my eyes. 

                          
"I'm sorry Ally-Cat. I'm so sorry", I let out a sob as I whispered the apology. I would do anything just to go back to us again. Even if it meant we were just friends. I would do anything to just see her smile and hear her laugh. I would give up everything just to have her not hate me anymore. I wanted my Ally-Cat back. And I wish I could do something about it. 

                          
I got up. I have to do something about it. I'm no schlump that gives up before trying. I'm Warren Peace damn it! I never give up! Not before trying at least. I have to at least try. I got on my shoes, and ran down the stairs. I could hear the sound of my mother calling after me. But I didn't pay her no attention. I have to at least try and get her back. Even if it meant going back to just being friends. 

                          
I'll take what I can get. 
                          
For my Ally-Cat. 

                          
I'll do anything for her. Even if I have to make an ass out of myself. I'll do anything for this girl. I'm a simp for this girl, I've never denied it before, and I won't deny it now. No matter what people think. 

                          
I'm going to go get my girl. 
                          
My girl.