chapter seven.

                                    

                                          
TW: EATING DISORDER
                          
Atlas
                          
Thursday-
                          
I walked into potions class with Theo by my side. He's been quite nice and a real gentleman. He walks me to class and he walks me to meals and such. 
                          
I've noticed Pansy become tenser around me which is exactly what I wanted. It just proves to me that I do have an effect on her. 
                          
"You're cruel" Daphne whispered as I passed by to get to my seat in the back of the class, which is next to Pansy. 
                          
I turn to her "I'm only doing what I have to do. If she wants me then she'll come to me" I shrug. 
                          
"You definitely get that from your brother" Draco chuckled as he sat next to Astoria who sits behind Daphne. 
                          
"What can I say. I learned from the best" I smirked as Blaise joined them. I waved to them all as I turn and head to the back. 
                          
Pansy has her head on the desk as I take a seat. "Hello beautiful" I smile and she finally picks her head up, giving me a glare. 
                          
She doesn't know what she does to me when she does that. 
                          
"What's got your knickers in a twist?" I furrow my brows, setting my books on the table. 
                          
"Just stay out of my business, Pucey" She hisses and at that, I smirk to myself. 
                          
I look up at the group who is looking at me and shaking their heads. They all have an idea of what I'm doing but none has said it's a bad one. In my eyes, it's the best idea ever. 
                          
***
                          
I walked into the great hall for dinner and saw Theo sitting next to my seat. I frowned to myself. I was using Theo and I knew it. I secretly knew that he only wanted to get in my pants. I mean, he's friends with Cassius and that seemed to be all he ever cared about. Sex. 
                          
As I walked closer to the table, I could see that Pansy saw me. She quickly got up and left, leaving half of her meal untouched. 
                          
"Hey" Theo smiled at me as I sat down. I felt guilty and I couldn't take it anymore. I couldn't go on the date with him. 
                          
"Look, Theo." I slid into my seat, Draco, Daphne, and Blaise watching me intensely. "I can't go on that date with you." I smiled "Sorry" 
                          
He scoffed "I fucking knew it. You're just as innocent as everyone says you are. Won't let a dick in your pants" He rolled his eyes and stood up. 
                          
"So you did just want to get in my pants?" I asked amused and he turned to look down at me. 
                          
"That's what everyone wants to do. To just get in your pants" 
                          
"That's good to know. Go and tell the rest of your clique that they won't be able to get in." I smirked at his reaction. He was shocked. "Bye now" I waved and then turned back to the rest.
                          
Everyone had their mouths open and were shocked. I didn't acknowledge it. I just ate my food.  
                          
"Well, I'm going to make sure Pansy is okay," Draco said, standing up. "Want me to tell her you and Nott are a no go?"
                          
"Nah. She'll be fine. It's funny getting a rise out of her." He nodded and then left the great hall. 
                          
After a few more minutes, and after making sure that Daphne and Blaise weren't paying attention, I slipped out of my seat and went to the abandoned bathroom on the other side of the school. 
                          
This side of the school was always so peaceful. No one really came over here because it's where most of the ghosts stayed. Most students didn't like ghosts. They scared them. 
                          
I'll spend some nights and even some of my free periods over on this side of the castle. I'm also here for a few minutes after meals. 
                          
Before I entered the bathroom, I looked up and down the corridor to make sure no one was around. 
                          
I entered the bathroom and walked into the farthest stall. I got down on my knees and put my hair in a quick ponytail. I stuck out my tongue and stuck my finger into the back of my throat. 
                          
Instantly, everything I had eaten came out and into the toilet. I did this one more time and made sure that I left a little something left in my stomach. 
                          
I wiped my mouth and lent back on the wall after I flushed the toilet. 
                          
No one knows I have bulimia. I mean, my family did once, in fourth year. Adrian had caught me after dinner and told my mum and dad. After that night, I went to an eating disorder facility for the rest of that summer. 
                          
After I got out and went to school, I was doing strong and holding my breath I guess you could say. That was until Marcus flint. 
                          
"You look like a fucking cow" He laughed as he walked past me in the courtyard. "No wonder no one wants you!" He shouted and that's when he and his group started to laugh. 
                          
I instantly went to the abandoned bathroom and as soon as I threw up, I felt relieved. 
                          
"Hold on. I got to piss" I heard Pansy's voice from the hall. 
                          
Shit.
                          
I climbed onto the toilet and covered my mouth with my hand to ensure I made no noise. I heard two sets of footsteps until I heard the door open but not close. One of the sets of footsteps stopped and one kept coming closer. 
                          
"She's driving me fucking mad Draco," Pansy said as she clicked the stall door shut. "Does she not see what she does to me?"
                          
"It's not what she's doing to you, it's what you're doing to her. If you were to say one sexual thing to her, she'd pounce on you. But you being scared of your feelings? That is what's making you mad" Draco explained to her. 
                          
"I know that but it's not something I can just get over" She zipped up her skirt. I took the bold chance to look above the stalls as I heard it open. 
                          
Draco was standing in the doorway, his back facing into the bathroom. Pansy walked to the sinks and when the water turned on, Draco turned around and his eyes locked with mine. 
                          
Fuck.
                          
He gave me a quizzical look but I just put my finger to my mouth 'Shhh' I didn't say it but I motioned it.
                          
"What does she fucking see in Nott?" Pansy scoffed. 
                          
"No clue" Draco shot me a wink as he and Pansy left the bathroom. I waited until I couldn't hear their footsteps anymore to get off of the toilet and leave. 
                          
Should I drive her even more mad?