Her feet felt frozen beneath her, not due to the cold weather, but the hesitation within her. Suddenly all the warmth she had felt being home with the Weasley's was ripped away as if a dementor had sucked it out of her. Her fingers and the tip of her nose suddenly felt the sharpness of the breeze, and her stomach dropped.
Joshua kneeled before her, presenting her with the most beautiful ring. He smiled up at her and she noticed the tears that pooled in his dark eyes. The white snowflakes contrasted his dark hair as they fell lightly on top like an angel's halo. Joshua truly was an angel, sweet and gracious, always putting her first. But even with the heartwarming thoughts of her boyfriend swarming in her mind, Y/N couldn't bring herself to say yes.
She glanced back at the burrow, spotting the gaggle of redheaded Weasley's gazing at her through the window. She noticed their expressions falter, probably after noticing the fact that he hadn't slipped the ring on her finger yet. Molly, Arthur, Ginny, and all the boys, Y/N paused when she didn't spot Fred, and her heart fell to her stomach.
She quickly turned back to Joshua with the guiltiest look, but how could she grant him a life with her if her heart belonged to another? Deep down, Y/N knew that she always belonged to Fred. It was certain back in Hogwarts, the sparks she felt when he kissed her on the astronomy tower, or let her borrow his jumpers never quite faded.
Joshua was good, he was pure and he would make an extraordinary husband, but it wasn't fair to him to accept his proposal and Y/N knew that.
She squeezed his hand as he looked up at her, and she pursed her lips.
"I love you, Joshua."
Joshua sighed, lowering his hand that held the velvet box.
"I do, but I can't–" She tried to continue.
"It's okay." Joshua stood up, now towering over her.
She felt the wave of guilt wash over her as he stood. She could no longer see the crown of snowflakes on his head, and the pool of tears had finally released, cascading down his flushed cheeks elegantly.
She didn't expect him to yell, Joshua was rather cool tempered. He was a very generous lover, but he surprised her. He pulled her to him and kissed her forehead, his hand cupped her cheek as he looked down at her.
"I love you, Y/N," he nodded, "Thank you for giving me the best six months of my life."
Y/N felt a few wet tears trickle down her face, tears she didn't even know were forming at his words. Joshua tucked the box back into his pocket, to give to another girl someday, a girl who loved him just as much as he loved her. He deserved that, Y/N knew, but she wasn't the one to give that to him.
"Still friends, yeah?" Joshua chuckled, contrasting the tears that still fell.
Y/N let herself laugh, feeling the weight lifted off her chest. She laughed, a melodic chuckle that had her curling into Joshua's chest and hugging him tightly. He kissed the top of her head and rubbed her back. They only stayed like that momentarily, before Y/N remembered the huddle of her second family watching from the window.
"Better go break the news then." She pursed her lips.
Joshua exhaled a breathy laugh and nodded, guiding her back towards the back door with his hand resting on her lower back.
The atmosphere they walked into was awkward, no one spoke, silently waiting for someone else to go first. The Weasley family looked to Y/N almost with guilty eyes, like they didn't know whether to congratulate her or apologize. She caught the sad smile Charlie threw at Joshua, and she squeezed Joshua's hand in hers.
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Harry Potter One Shots
Fanfiction"Well done, dragon!" - here you'll find all the harry potter characters (x female!reader) imagines I have written. You can also find these on my tumblr where they will be originally posted. https://blackwjdow .tumblr.com/ #6 in #harrypotterimagine...
