I wondered what Jake was doing right now. He didn't come to the hospital to visit me at all. I was waiting for him to come since this morning, but I guess he was busy with his work. So, I decided to wait until he came to me again.
Sadly, I didn't bring the phone with me. I couldn't reach for Namjin at all. If she was here, I would tell her everything that happened today and cry in front of her. She was my comfort, she was the person I felt so comfortable saying everything I felt.
She understood me more than anyone else.
I got off the bed carefully and went to the window of the room to take a look at the night scenery. 
I let out a small chuckle when I could see some kids were playing at the park with their parents. I shifted my gaze to the couple that walked around the park together and parted my lips because I felt so envious of them.
It must be so nice to get into a relationship with someone who loves me back. I wondered how does it feel to be loved and appreciated by the person I loved. I watched them playing together and laughed when they ran around the park together.
The memories from the last night crossed my mind. The moment when Jake and I ran around the convenience store together while throwing water at each other. I wished I could experience the moment with him again. 
I wished I could spend my time with him again before our marriage reached an end in less than two months. 
I grabbed a chair and took a seat before continue watching people from the room. I watched them silently and patted my chest when the moment of Yurim confessing her feeling for Jake to me crossed my mind again.
it hurts.
Jake fell in love with her for years. Jake has been waiting for her a long time ago. He faced a lot of difficult things every time he wanted to be with Yurim. Even though it hurts him, he never gave up waiting for his feeling to get returned.
And now, Yurim returned his feeling.
Every single thing that Jake did for her was worth it now. I wondered how would he feel when he found out about her feeling for him. 
He would run to her and hug her.
He would say that he is so thankful for her for returning his feeling after years of waiting.
He would stay with her and leave me alone.
I should have always remembered that our relationship was just temporary. I should have remembered that once everything came to the end, I have nothing to do with him anymore. We would separate from each other and live our life happily. 
I should have remembered that, but I failed.
The more I thought about him, the more I wanted to be with him. I wished he was here with me right now. I wanted to run towards him and hug him so much. I wanted to tuck my head into his embrace again and held his hand.
I wanted to see him longer.
I couldn't believe that everything was just temporary.
"What are you looking at?"
I was surprised when I heard the voice. I turned to look at the person who was standing next to me and blinked in confusion. I was so confused. Am I hallucinating and dreaming?