Year 5 Part 11

                                    

                                          
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I stood in the hallway that Fred left me in 
I couldn't bring myself to move, he laid his feelings all out there for me and I just stood there and didn't say anything back 
What happened to me not backing down
To me telling him how I felt...
He doesn't deserve what I put him through 
I know I've missed the whole practice so I decided to go find Cedric
I need to break it off with him it's not fair to him, I am still in love with Fred I know I am 

I looked around for a while for him, but soon gave up
He might be in his common room studying 
I'll leave him alone for the night 
I went to the Gryffindor common room, hoping someone would be there to talk to 
And someone was indeed
George and Lee 
I walked up to them and sat right beside George 
  "Hey George hey Lee" I slouched further into the cushions
  "How was detention?" Lee asked 
Him and George shared a look 
  "It was detention with Umbridge" I said lifting my bandaged hand "could it get any worse that that?" 
  "I don't know what Angelina was more annoyed about, the fact that both a chaser and a beater were missing practice or the fact that it was you two together missing it" George said laughing "she was pissed" 
  "Why did she want to ruin our relationship" I said playing with the bandage 
Lee stayed quiet but George answered me
   "Because unhappy people ruin everything, she missed Fred and I'm sure she wanted him back and figured he wasn't going to leave you ever so she had to find a way to break you two up...which you fell for so easily" 
  "Why didn't you snap me out of it? I was so upset thinking Fred would do that to me, I didn't even give him a chance to explain things" I said ashamed 
  "We've been dealing with moppy Fred all year because of it, we should be mad at you" Lee said poking my shoulder 
  "I'm sorry" 
  "We're not the ones to apologize to" George said 
I heard the door open and in came Hermione Harry and Ron 
They came over and sat with us 
  "Hey Electra did detention blow as much as I figure it did?" Ron asked looking at my hand 
  "Sorry I wasn't in class, I wish you didn't have it alone you know I would have stood up for him too" Harry said looking into the fire 
  "But we don't need both of you in trouble" Hermione added 
  "I wasn't alone, and actually I'm glad you weren't there Harry I was able to talk to someone that I haven't been able to bring myself to do all year" 
The three of them stared at me then at George who just shrugged his shoulders 
  "I think it's time to go to sleep" Hermione said grabbing my arm 
  "Hey I want to hear about it too!" Ron yelled out
But Hermione dragged me upstairs and made me tell her every bit of our conversation 
When I was done she smiled 
  "I think you need to do exactly that, break up with Cedric at least and go after him. He said some mean things to you that I'll never forgive him for but I love seeing you happy. And you haven't been the same since the breakup, you both bring out the best in each other" 
I smiled at my hand 
   "Yeah you're right" 
  "Also, Harry Ron and I were talking about making our own defense classes, since Umbridge refuses to teach us anything important...and well Harry is going to teach it but I think you should chime in some days too. You are incredible at that class and know as much as he does, you're even in the order unlike the rest of us" 
I laughed 
  "Hermione you know how much trouble you'll be in if you get caught" 
  "Yeah well some rules are ok to break"
I grabbed her hand 
  "Of course I will when does it start?" 
  "We have to pick a day to discuss it and people who want to learn from you two, so spread the word to people who you trust no Slytherins" 
  "I feel bad leaving them out"
  "But they will squeal on us you know that"
I nodded and went to the bathroom to take a shower and clean my hand 
I didn't want to take Fred's shirt off my hand but it needed to get disinfected, so I slowly unraveled it 
All the while thinking of how much his words meant to me
That he still loves me even though I was the worst to him, not giving him time to talk to me and change my mind about what happened 
I enjoy Cedric's company, but he never makes me feel the way Fred does and won't ever 
My soul is attached to Fred, and I don't know why I ever thought he would abandon me after all we have been through 
I'm
So 
Stupid 
I got into the shower, and used my strawberry body wash to clean up with 
I took my time cleaning my hair, running my hands through it with peppermint scented shampoo and conditioner 
After that, I sat down in the shower and let the water hit my body 
I love Fred
He's my soul mate 
How could I ever hurt him, he wouldn't ever doubt me like that 
He would have taken my side right away...
I don't deserve him 
I stayed in the shower long enough that Hermione came and checked on me 
Making sure I didn't drown myself to avoid O.W.Ls is what she said when she sat down near the shower 
She didn't say much after that, just sat down with me and waited for my shower to go cold 
I got out and put a towel around my body, and hugged her tightly 
  "Hermione I love you thank you for never judging my poor choices and letting me figure out things on my own" 
She hugged me back tightly too
  "I love you too, im always here for you"
We all went to bed, but when I finally heard Hermione fall into a deep sleep, I left the room
I don't know what I'm doing, maybe it's my subconscious bringing me here 
But I need to see him
To be held by him
I can't wait till tomorrow to talk to him
I knocked on his dorm room door
And waited 
And waited
And waited
He must be asleep
I turned around and started heading back down the stairs when I heard the door open
My heart is racing, I can feel it pounding through my chest 
  "Electra?" Fred said 
I turned around, and he was standing there in his long pants and without a shirt 
Merlin he is so hot 
I took a deep breath 
  "I'm sorry I didn't mean to Uh wake you never mind" I turned back around and headed for the stairs 
He grabbed my shoulder and pulled me into an embrace 
I took the moment to inhale his scent, and remember what it felt like to feel my heart beat this fast
To remember his strong arms holding me
To remember his sleepy voice 
To remember him
He didn't say anything after that, he just picked me up into his arms, I put my arms around his neck and he put his hands under my butt and brought me to his dorm 
Where we slept in each other's arms for the first time in months 
And for the first time in months, I felt complete
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