CEPHALOPHORIA

the thing about faulkner's father reacting to his son's actual literal fratricidal murder confession as if it were a poetic metaphor and arguing that charlie's death is as much his fault as it is faulkner's, if not more, is that it is an incredibly tragicomic dramatic miscommunication of meaning during an intimate and pivotal heart-to-heart between two characters with an immensely complex relationship built up over the course of three seasons of brilliant writing, but. it just goes to show the bitter futility of it all, doesn't it? if faulkner's father hadn't neglected his duties to his sons as a parent, then maybe faulkner wouldn't have been able to drown charlie when they were supposed to be in school. but maybe he would have still been called to his faith, and found a way to sacrifice charlie to the trawlerman anyway. and if faulkner hadn't drowned charlie, then another hungry predator cloaked in the skin of something calling itself divine might have lured him into its depths anyway. and if another hungry god hadn't eaten him up, then he might have moved to the city, or followed in his father's footsteps, and been fed to one by his more opportunistic colleagues and peers willing to sacrifice anyone threatening their position, let alone their ascent, up the corporate and social ladder anyway. the blame is pandemic. it's a rot that spreads far beyond the family tree. yes, faulkner killed charlie, and yes, faulkner's father failed his sons, and still none of it changes the fact that charlie was always an acceptable sacrifice - a footnote in a far grander story - in the eyes of the world he lived in, anyway.

more sex scenes that are needing emergency field surgery and refusing to let the other person put you under or take any painkillers to avoid being at their mercy completely, and threatening to kill them if they try anything (but you both know you're in their hands as much as they are in yours, and there's an undeniable intimacy to the act that you find yourself compelled by out of some sick animal need for human connection and kindness you've failed to excise that's rearing its ugly head in your hideously vulnerable state no matter how much you want to be repulsed by it) scenes

beating the catholic allegations by stanning a fictional war crime instead of the many many real ones committed by the catholic church throughout history to this day

me as a director only allowing sexualised shots at the same time as the nastiest goriest horror imagery so people will argue over which was more unnecessarily gratuitous and fail to realise that i'm getting off to both of them

looks pointedly at my url