It's certainly hard to bury your brays, but you can still hold your donkey ears down. For as long as you still have hands.

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I think, to both get my creativity up and to actually give you folks something rather than just a man in his early twenties bickering and whining about everything, it is best to upload at least one thing per month as a means of talking about how things are going for me currently. Plus, I'll probably mention other things rather than just how this month has been for me, like Pinocchio, as I have finished the book.

Well, when I say that I have finished the book, I mean that I have finished the book late last year, and when I say to get my creativity up each month, I'm not mentioning that this drawing was made in mid-2021. June the 5th, exactly. It was made as a ton of test images for a University Assignment that I honestly regretted doing on the artistic skill of my friend (who is doing very well at the moment, getting her first job at a VFX company). There is still a ton more, maybe I'll upload them at some point. Probably not. This drawing was also during the time where I was reading Pinocchio. I didn't finish it until literally the last night of 2021, and that's really because I didn't finish the final chapter. I enjoyed it. Well, most of it. Pinocchio is hard to truly like as he doesn't seem to learn from even previous mistakes that he did a chapter ago. It was fun to explore the world of fantasy that Pinocchio had. I especially smiled when I read the names Medoro and Candlewick, although a certain character's end was deeply saddening to read. I'll be honest, I didn't like the Blue Fairy. One of her choices that she made to "teach" Pinocchio a lesson was incredibly insane and troubling. I feel like a certain sorcere-

Enedia: Just say my name, it is- wait, you have issues with the Blue Fairy?

...y-yes?

Enedia: Well, fancy that. I feel as though I might arrange a few visits with certain fae and entities that would delight in hearing of your discoveries. I'll make sure I have enough tea and wine for when they arrive.

I am rather intrigued by the new Pinocchio film that is arriving in December this year, as it feels like a unique take on the tale. I enjoyed the book a lot. If there is any other fairytales that you all want to recommend to me, please do!

This month has just been rather hollow. It hasn't been the best but that could be due to the COVID stopping any plans for travelling back into the city to see friends, although it seems to be not a problem for them. So, it has been nothing interesting for this whole month. I have had an MRI for my shoulder to see if it is any sort of nerve or bone issue, and thankfully, but more confusingly, it wasn't. So I have no idea outside of purely guessing what the issue is for my shoulder. It hasn't been great, with heart-breaking discoveries, constant comparisons, lack of energy, heat making it hard to sleep, and computer problems, the year hasn't gone off to a strong promising start. My dad almost (and thankfully didn't) got COVID and almost became a close contact which would have caused so much issues with scheduling for everyone's work. Thankfully my brother was still able to visit from where he lived due to work. My mental state hasn't been overly great, I'm still struggling with getting sleep even with the heat completely making it harder for me to do so. I've just felt really, really hollow. Even me getting back into doing art still hasn't brought up any sort of energy into me. My drive is just really flat. And even if I get back into art, you all know what I'm doing. It is just Doctor Who art again. It isn't anything special. Nothing worth anything. And seeing my friends all finish, succeed, and go on to do something special makes me feel low. I don't feel good about myself. I need to get better, and stop feeling sorry for myself. The mirror showing my reflection needs to change into what I want to see. And that is someone happy.

Songs that I have discovered or rediscovered this month:

Fire - Jimi Hendrix
Ding Dong, Ding Dong - George Harrison
End Of The Line - Traveling Wilburys
Your Smiling Face - James Taylor
Landslide - Fleetwood Mac
Touch Me - The Doors
Kiss Me - Sixpence None The Richer
Goodnight Tonight - Wings
Army - Ben Folds Five
Capable Of Anything - Ben Folds
There's Always Someone Cooler Than You - Ben Folds
Learn To Live With What You Are - Ben Folds