Sp: I just dont know what"s real or what"s a hallucination brought on by my crippling loneliness and depression anymore....I swear I think I could still feel....but it must just be my imagination again....this does feel nice thou....just wish it was real....

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This was a lovely gift my friend got to draw for me because ive been feeling down.
It part of the norm for me to feel like this during this time so no one should worry.
However These feeling are always with me even if I hold them in for the rest of the year.
I feel if something good ever happens to me...its just a fleeting moment....

anyways thank you for caring.