~xenolugia150

This is a journal that has been a long time coming, and it's been something that has been weighing very much on my mind and finally came to fruition today. I don't expect many to understand why I am doing this, or that I am betraying people, etc, etc, but this is something that I realized needs to be done. Over the past few months I have been struggling with a lot of personal demons and vices and other things that have been holding me back...things that I should not have been doing, but did it anyway. Sound religious or conscious you might say...you'd be correct. I won't bore you all with the details as again, I don't expect to find too many that can totally relate or understand, but suffice to say with all of this...my gallery is coming down tonight. At 8:00 PM EST I will begin removing the pictures and the like and they will not be coming back, nor will I have access to them either.

Extreme? Perhaps yes, but it's what I need to do to move along in my life and to unburden myself from what this has done to me...things that I regret doing in my personal life that came about because of this. However, do understand that this isn't being done because I am mad at anyone here or the like...this is totally personal, totally something that has tugged at my spirit for far too long that needed to be done, and today...today was the confirmation that I got that I needed to set myself on a different path. Again, I fully expect rage, dislikes, hatred, and whatever else from some or many of those that have come to enjoy my gallery and the artists I featured in it. This also doesn't mean that I won't be cutting myself off from communications from those that I do communicate with, but understand that this subject matter will be very limited to practically non-existent with me if you want to talk with me. It's a hurdle that I have to climb, but I know that I have to if I want to keep on growing in the ways I know I should be.

Finding me here on FA, though...well...I will likely not be responding to notes and the like from now on, so to those who only have that way to communicate, I do apologize, but that will be what it is. I do want to thank those who have and will continue to be friends with me, and even those who may not be...I will cherish those thoughts well. That all said...once again...gallery will begin coming down at 8:00 PM EST tonight and then will never be up again, so you have plenty of fair warning before it's all gone! Peace out to all and good luck to all in your journeys...oh...and just for some crazy reason someone thinks this is like a suicide journal or the like...IT IS NOT! It's more a goodbye thing from this site and that's really all it is, so dun read too much more into it than that. All right, now for real...peace out and good luck all!