~LockeFenrrir

It is nothing new to anyone that the quarantine has been (A SHAKING HELL ...), we just can't leave the house for 1 year and in the meantime more problems have arisen than answers for them ... Since stupid fights with people who live with you, politicians talking shit over and over. But in the midst of all that shit, we missed things that before the pandemic were “banal?” for us as for example ... Eating a pack of doritos on the beach watching the sun slowly set ...

These days I was there passing through my facebook timeline (yes I still use facebook, you can call me whatever you want I don't care ...) and I saw a post that somehow moved me. As much as I talked about the anxiety of leaving home at least to see people and then come back, it reminded me of the beach. As I live on the coast, the beach will always be a point of reference for me in a way but, how long have I been gone to the beach? Even though she is in my face every day and I am not going to her? One of the things I really miss is the salty smell of the sea, the smell of sweat in contact with the sea and the sun and a little bit of frying from the bars ...

It's been so long since I went to the beach and watched the sun slowly go away, and the orange colors stain the gray-blue sky that in a way turns a lilac purple, while the waves break in the sea and die in the sand .... And I taste a packet of salty snacks in the shape of triangles where the seasoning sticks all over your fingers (aka, nacho cheese doritos) and keeps me relaxing and for a few minutes or hours, makes me forget that I have problems, that i am still alive and my existence is so simple and vague in the universe and even if i died it wouldn't make much difference to the universe since we are mere souls living and wandering around this world waiting for our time to leave earth ...

But just like the waves breaking in the sea and dying in the sand, thoughts are not forever and one hour they die and change ... Maybe it's not every day that I can go to the beach, even more so in these current times, and neither it will be every day that I go to buy doritos at the market close to home or on the way to the beach. One day the day will come when I will no longer be able to go to the beach to think and release my stress, but at least I will keep the memories of the end of the day beside the sea with me.


-Lukas