~Lapee_Rabbit

for these past three years I have been socially isolated and have only had online friends but yknow, atleast I had my family around? That atleast made me not go badshit insane but four months ago I got kicked out of my mothers house because she didnt want me living there anymore and im not really sure why she never said why.

for those three months I have been alone, by myself with only shitty hotspot internet that did me, I was happy for the first three weeks when my dad came out regularly but then he stoppe and I started to go fucking insane. I was not happy at all and when the power or eletricity went out I would just drink hoping I would blackout and he would be there to like, take me out and eventually he did for two weeks. (I would also drink because of pure bordeom.)

He picked me up and took me to his friends house where we stayed for like a week and then to his girlfriends house where I slept on a sofa for three weeks being promised a shed out the back where I can stay every single day may I remind you this sofa is extremly uncomfortable not even to just sit on, but to sleep on too I fucking hated it. But I am very paitent and I am happy about this so I waited and Waited, then my Laptop broke. he took it to the shop and it was supposed to be done the next day, and then It wasnt, it was posponed to the next day. this was repeated. Same with the shed, The day it was supposed to come there was a storm, I was very mad that day because I was woken up and told to "UP!", like get up, I was told the shed wasnt comming and didnt wanna get up.

The next day, the shed came, but checked the back witch was too steap. he was supposed to put stones out the back for the shed to stand on for weeks but just didnt, so that was another day sleeping on a shitty sofa. The next day he decided to drink the night before so he got kicked out of the house and so did I, now I am back up using hotspot, Alone, few days till Christmas and I dont even know if I'll be spending it with anyone.

Laptop stilll isnt here, whole years worth of work is on there, all my VRChat assets. Don't think I'm getting it back so fuck me I guess.

I'm 17 btw, not important but yeah. Just wanted to write down how I feel. I hate when I am promised things for weeks and weeks that things will come but never do, my sense of want is gone.