~Klaora

Heya! I'm really sorry but Crayon Club is postponed until Thursday this week. One of my cats needs a vet visit today. I'm currently in the waiting room and $450 lighter lol

So get your refs/character images ready for then! :)

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I have had....a few rough weeks to say the least.
But I'm starting to feel a little better.

Some of you may know that my hard drive with -all- of my art failed a bit of a while back. After doing what I could myself and with some help if a friend, I realized that the job was out of my league and took it to a professional.
After about a week, I got the news that it would not be easy to recover, but they could still do so. It required a $400 down payment to start and these types of jobs likely exceed $1000.
Now...
I can't even make the $100 a month I need to make Star Seller on Etsy (despite meeting every other ridiculous metric.)

In short, I had my entire livelihood ripped from under me.
And I was still in mourning over the election.

I did manage to get some of my high res files from my print companies. They're not the working files or the originals, but it's enough to continue, at least.
I foolishly did not watermark my sticker designs, so that's good news for me!
I was already working on overhauling my button designs, so I'll have to remake only a few of those. If there are ANY of those you've been wanting, especially older designs, my quantities are limited. The only buttons that I'm currently planning to re-do are "Submissive and Breedable," "Mayor of Clown Town," and maybe "yif."

I need to completely redo a $250 commission that was already embarrassingly late. It was 95% finished, but I'll take my punishment for not backing things up properly.

And I'm finally down from last week's mild manic episode triggered by multiple cases of emotional whiplash.

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I'm also having issues with my mental health provider. I was supposed to have an appointment for a med change that I missed due to tech issues.
They claim that it's on my end, despite trying multiple browsers, devices, restarting my hardware, etc
All while ping-ponging me to different levels of tech support while they ask me inane questions like "have you tried closing all your tabs?"

It's still not fixed
I'm no longer on my doctor's roster for "missing" two appointments
I have a new doctor that probably won't take my ADHD shit seriously because they NEVER DO
(I'm on a non-addictive ADHD medication that helps a tiny bit, but y'all won't give me a proper diagnosis and the medication that actually works. Okay.)
And if I can't access their shitty web client again, I'll have to find a new practice altogether that takes my insurance and
UGHHHH
The American healthcare system SUCKS

So anyway
I'm clinically depressed and my ADHD has been absolutely unmanageable over these last few weeks. I can't focus for the life of me and it's infuriating how little I accomplish each day.

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I'm mentally and emotionally exhausted. I'm existing purely out of spite. It's a new week and I'm gonna try again.
I'm doing A LOT better about trying again. That's the hard part. I'm still posting and present and sometimes that's enough.

Y'all take care.