~jckehayias

I wanted to write a poem or story about what happened recently in my life but instead I'm just going to write. I'm going to write and see what happens, because i don't think i'm going to be doing it again for a long time.

I don't feel like telling everyone my problems. I don't even feel like crying anymore. I feel like appologizing. Over the last few days I've found more things out about myself than I cared to know and I don't feel fit to know anyone after a nights sleep. I've been told I should forgive myself and move on. I've also been called a curse. Maybe these mistakes I made were the first of their kind, and I'd never been in that situation before so who knew what was going to happen. But i'm not makeing excuses.

I'm disgusted with myself. You will not be seeing writing from me here any longer, anyone who has me watched you will want to remove me because you will not see anything new from me. I don't want to write anymore.

Thank you everyone for reading what I had to write over the years, and if you're also a part of my Deviant Art, EDH group, IRC group or StarWars ToR group please do the same as I've instructed here.

If ever i have control over my words again, when i can learn how to use them without makeing a monster of myself, i'll come back.

For anyone who wants to stay in contact my skype information is kehayiasbeast

Thanks again.