This is the only journal I will probably make, I am using it to answer things as I have gotten some notes.

Commissions: I am not a writer or artist. Everything was made for me by someone else, either by request or after me paying them. Do not ask me for anything.

Uploads: Do not expect frequent activity. These were accumulated over more than a decade of off-on commissions that were previously private.

Why: I discovered early on that I was into this stuff. As I imagine with lots of others, I am attracted to and find many of the creatures and characters I subject to violence and gore in these commissions to be appealing or sexy in ways, but I happen to find it appealing to see them in such terrible states of suffering and destruction too.

As I searched everywhere I could to find this very niche content I am into, I quickly found what was there to be disappointing to me. The vast majority of castation/cbt/penectomy stories and art was focused on just regular anthros in modern settings like our real world, with a lack of ferals, non-mammals, macros, micros, monsters/creatures, aliens, size differences, and more unique conditions and story scenarios.

A lot of the stories also lacked permanence and gore. Painlessness, ball focus, consentual situations, and underwhelming endings and violence throughout. The ball/dick destruction/removal usually was a quick one and done deal with not much physical, sensational, and anatomical details given to the acts, and very little special attention paid to the glans, urethra, or other parts.

I decided that because nobody else out there seemed to be making what I wanted to see, I put my money where my interests are and now share the results for those that may have the same interests and found the content disappointing. Maybe more could learn to do the same as I did and most importantly, share the results too.