~Glee

TL;DR - Back pain sucks. It hurts to write. I'm still doing it anyway. I've been sort of hiding away, because I don't want to be a drag. I'll do my best to brush those feelings aside and start sharing stories again this week.

For many years, I've had some back trouble.

For two years, I've had chronic, significant back trouble.

For five months, I've had constant, serious back trouble. The kind where waking up pain-free is super rare, where feeling 2 out of 10 pain is "comfortable," where you can't go to the movies with friends because you don't want to risk the seats not being the right kind of supportive and it ruining your entire week just because you wanted to go see a good movie with nice people...

As you can imagine, sitting down to write hurts and I feel it for days. Writing on my side starts hurting pretty quickly. Lying on my back is the least painful, and most of the monthly writing I still accomplish for Patreon is done in a weird on my back, knees up, laptop propped on my stomach, position.

It really sucks that the creative art I enjoy doing, and enjoy sharing with others, and helps pay my bills, is causing me pain. I don't like hiding things from people, but I also don't like dragging other peoples' moods down seeming mopey when I don't even want to be mopey, and I very rarely am, but I'm also worn down and tired more often. It's a confusing knot of "I kind of want to hide away but I really like being around cool people" feelings. I get some time with friends who come over more than once a week, so that helps a lot, but also spends up a lot that kind of mental energy. It's led to me drawing away from the internet.

But, I don't want to draw away. I like being a kinky weirdo with my kinky weirdo friends!

So, I'll post a story this week, and I'll keep posting. At least two a month, okay? And when I work up the momentum, I'll hop back on Discord, too.

PS: if any of you out there have, like, a rubberification ray, please let me know so I can send you my address? Thanks. <3

PPS: I see I have notes. When I come back on later this week to post a story, I will look at them. For now I really want to lie down, sorry!