~EV1LP1NK1

. . . yeah..

So, I'm kinda bad at making myself do things I need/should do. I get anxious about situations and, sometimes just sorta shut down.
I don't /mean/ to ghost people but, nerves and stuff.

This is one of the things I want to overcome this year though, one of the things I'm working myself towards overcoming.
Despite not posting much over here, or really posting anything over here, I haven't been entirely inactive. I am working
on projects in the background and I do share some of what I'm working on elsewhere, I just been anxious about some of
the work I'd taken on over here, and I apologize for the radio-silence. It's not professional, it's not even remotely okay.

I worry that my illustration work isn't good enough, that I haven't had enough practice, that I can't fulfill someone else's
vision well enough that, I tend to stop before I even start. As bad as I feel my "artistic" abilities are, my communication
skills are even worse off.

This, needs, to, change.

So, before I ramble on too long and get lost in my thoughts, let's lay this out.

1: If you've requested work from me in the past, please message me about it. I do know of a few req. that I been sitting on
but I'm sure there's some that I've forgotten. In fact, betteryet, make it a note on this journal please. Maybe a publicly
available list of work-due will light that much needed fire under my ass.
2: If you aren't already aware, I have been uploading a bit of my more recent stuff on e621. Just look for "ev1lp1nk1" or
the name I'm trying to go under moreso now is "Jamie_Bun"
3: While I'm taking the time to build up some more works, I'm hoping to start up a new account over here soon-ish. Partially
because I want a fresh start (better curated gallery of work to show current abilities) I have no intention of wiping this
account, but it will go completely quiet eventually, and I will ensure to leave notice of what account you can find me at.

4: I, don't really know what else. Last couple of weeks I been trying to draw a little every day, just to say I did /something/
but I desperately need to figure out some sort of schedule or methodology to force myself into taking this seriously.
I'm done lying to myself. I /know/ I can draw, I /know/ I can be creative, I /KNOW/ I can handle talking to others in a
professional manner; I just need to figure out how to get myself in the required headspace to do it on the regular.
Until I get all that sorted though, I just ask everyone to please bear with me.

I want to make this happen, more than ever now. I know what I need to do, I just need to do it. So, yeah. Guess that's all
I have to say for now. That and, thanks for putting up with me.

All the love and affection.
Ev1lp1nk1
aka
Jamie