~Down

I'm no poet.. but I do love to try to describe how I feel.. here it goes <3

Picked on as a child I grew a shell .. to protect me. You know. That old chestnut ~_o. as I grew older and smarter.. my thought's were very introverted. I kept my thought's to myself of fear I would be cast out from what ever group I was in. My little caccoon. I slowly put together who I am by myself in a small little area. I kept my life enclosed. I did not reach out til I was ready.

Well.. I'm ready..

This once tortured, stepped on, ripped apart, Caterpillar .. is now I beautiful butterfly.

It's a full moon tonight ..
My self-acceptance has just been out of reach for so long and now I have it. I actually have it. I accept myself. I'm still trying to believe it myself. All the self hate is gone as of this moment. It may come back but I know I'll be able to get back on top with ease. I feel my fight is over.. the fight I started with myself when I was 12 that never really had an end in sight. Till now. I know I posts Journals like this a lot, but my life just keep's getting more and more clarity from the once blurriness.

Those who helped me.. or were somehow involved with me becoming happy.. you know who you are.. if your not sure.. you probably helped more then I could even tell you and I am eternally grateful <3

Anyway .. I really hope I can get some more artwork up soon .. I've actually met some other fur's who want me to hang out with them and such.. be nice to have other's to draw with.

I love you all so very much... I am crying right now out of such sweet release of this burden of self-hate

I don't know what else to say .. But next time I see you I'll say it in hugs.. how about that <3