~cyanzangoose

One of these b-day updates will be good news. I can't promise this. Life sucks for me and much anyone else the same. I'm not exclusive to these experiences. But for this writing I'm going to feel this way.

I actually yearn for good news, but the world around me presents me only the bad.
Few years ago. I had lost my Uncle due to DUI. The person that killed him stayed with him until the authorities came. Fast forward court proceedings later and we get an insurance pay out from their car insurance. It was quite low. Rest of the household seem satisfied and more so when the person that did the deed served time.
But that was not the case. Fast forward to this year. We were informed that the person who did the deed....did the deed again. Unsure if they killed anyone but was DUI. Had a warrant for when caught. They were living in a different county so I guess that caused complications on their arrest and or imprisonment. I'm still waiting on a resolution on court proceedings on this. Having learned this. Fills my heart with anger and hatred. This person, is young and stupid. And to be arrested for DUI tells ME they're not sorry for what they did. I cannot be convinced otherwise. Justice so awkward. Frustrating.

I've also lost my Grandmother this year. The household is lonelier and quieter. I'm currently the one in the household with stable income for the longest, since 2016 when my mother passed. I've recently got my brother working. But they're not giving him enough hours. But at least he's making money instead of making 0. We both commute via Bicycles. And since he's started. Pieces of his bike got stolen. While I never had any issues for the many years I worked there. (We work at the same place by the way). First week, handlebar bag and front lights. I bought him new ones. The next week. BOTH the wheels were stolen. Now he doesn't have a ride-able bike at the moment. People sure are cruel.

That's essentially that's been weighing on my soul. I'm very tired.

Art status. I've not uploaded since, what...May? I have still been drawing since then but Just not uploaded anything.
I'm interested into trying an Inktober. My first time. I'm a day late because I've very busy. And when I'm not busy. I'd rather sleep. (Forever if possible). I pulled up an old Monster one. Cause I like monster girls. I didn't much care for the current official prompts. So I'll do that oldie.
At least I'm not quitting the arts? Not yet. My hearts not in it though. I'm better off with it not being a business. Whatever I put on the canvas just means nothing to me. Maybe something to you when you see it. I'm without my my muse (My uncle above) since 2 years now. I have been unsuccessful in finding a new muse to reignite the art drive.

I think that's it...