~CovetedPeacock

TL;DR: Your local prettykitty doesn’t know what to write, and more troubling: she is really wound up. h e l p m e ? ? ?

Feel like the best way to consolidate my thoughts is to cover the two big topics on my mind: 1) the smut, and 2) my, uh, being very down bad since I started going into storm prep.

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First thing’s first: uh, thank you for all the love towards my first piece of smut????? I kinda just wrote it on a whim after talking in F-Chat about how I missed writing and getting a push from  Phen to actually give it a shot. The storm knocking out my internet connection combined with my cellular service in my apartment was the key to getting it accomplished so quickly, and I’m kinda really proud of what I made! Thanks again to Phen for being so encouraging, and to  MoonlitMoff for similarly being thrilled by the idea and being so supportive of what I made! ❤️

I’ve had the thought lingering since posting it, of trying to write a second thing. I’m still kinda racking my brain for ideas but at this point I’m 90% certain I wanna go for another story, probably with a different focus to it. Still likely to be functionally solo content for now while I feel out my writing style - don’t wanna fold in someone else’s character and mess up their behavior, and I don’t exactly have a second non-Pokémon character to fold into any of this (yet, anyways :3).

Something important that’s already come up with private circles: I’m not planning on doing writing commissions for the time being. On the one hand, I am unemployed and disabled so having some form of revenue stream I actually enjoy would be so fucking cool. On the other, I’ve tried doing writing comms before and it ended with my executive dysfunction getting in the way and never getting the pieces I’d been hired for done (fortunately money never exchanged hands, so I spared myself at least some embarrassment).

So, I’ll write another thing. Maybe. Hopefully. Suggestions would be much appreciated, even if they don’t end up being written immediately. :3

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Alright, now for the elephant in the room:
ya girl is not okay.

Probably oversharing, but like, I don’t think I’ve ever been this wound up before in my life, and this shit is lasting far longer than I thought it would. At first I thought “wow, look at me letting myself get a little indulgent and loosen up!”

Folks, this is more than just loosening up, this is full-on slut mode.

Like, any elements of me being flirty or horny in the past? They feel like me pretending to have any energy for this stuff.

Now? I finally have a freak for folks to match. I’m actually properly riled up and sociable and flirty and it’s really surreal. I’d heard friends say this is a common side effect of HRT but uhhhh… I’m not in a state where doing so is really possible, so this is just my brain at its base functions.

I am frightened. I am awakened.

I don’t know what to do with myself.

What a way to end this, right?