~BOOM-DeadSH0T

Hello, followers. If any of you still remember me. It has been five years, almost six years, since my last post on this account.

This account is, has, been dead for a long time. Allow me to explain why.

First, I have been dealing with anxiety, which was only made worse by isolation.
Since Covid-19 hit, it kinda made me an anxious wreck, which led to me being shut in my room for a long time.

So due to this, I was given a therapist. Whom I have been going to regularly.

I was hoping to get some jobs which never happened, which kicked my self esteem in the ass.

I was put on several different antidepressants. None of which worked without giving me very adverse effects, including insomnia.

And all the while I have just lost that spark I had. I keep trying to draw something, anything, but it's so fleeting an interest that I never get back to it.
I post some art on social media from time to time, but I never contribute any more posts here.

I had a youtube channel, which I decidedly privatized all my works. Because I was planning on backing up all my content then shutting it down. But I never got around to it.

I was hoping at some point that this page would boom and I would make a nice Terms of Service and set up commissions. I hoped to visit conventions and meet people.
Then everything I loved about the fandom became so very politically charged. So I began to distance myself from this place.

Truth is, I miss it so much. I miss posting here so much. I miss talking with people on here. I miss my old friends. I miss everyone and everything about the fandom.

I want so badly to post something here. I want to show I exist. But I don't know when that will happen.

I am sorry I don't post here anymore. Maybe some day I will.