~bonk

Hello folks. It's been more than a year since my last journal. A lot has happened. This journal won't be long like the last. This is really just an update. My mental health has improved a bit. I'm feeling less foggy in the brain and I'm resting better. I still haven't been about to get back to work like I have wanted so I have been doing some baby steps to get back to where I would like to be. I haven't taken on any major projects and have only taken smaller commissions. The one large project I do have Is still being worked on, all be it very slowly but it's still getting some attention. I feel very fortunate that those who commissioned it as well as any others working with me are patient and kind souls. They have all been some of the very best commissioners I have had. Thank you for that.

As for the rest of you out there. If you ever feel overwhelmed or begin to feel panic set in, please step away from whatever it is that causing it for a little while. Don't try to push through it like me. It's not healthy. Take some time and relax. Recover from it and then try getting back to work slowly. It's been very difficult for me. All my projects and commissions sit in the back of my head yelling at me about working on them. When I lay down to sleep they are there. So once again. Please take some time and find some help. Take it seriously and you will recover. I'm still working at it and I do feel much better. I'm not in a dark hole anymore. well, maybe half in that hole but I'm not totally in there anymore. I still have relapses but that's to be expected. Thank you all for being so Awesome and supportive. Much love to you all.

~Bonk