~Akuma_tlt

I should come clean and let you know that I'm depressed again. I have had complex depresso-anxiety disorder for many years and it comes back to me periodically. I've been through this before... and every time I went to the doctors for help, and they helped me. Now... it's happening again. No matter how hard I tried to avoid this, I observed mental hygiene... my psyche is very unstable in front of external problems and irritants.
In a normal state, I have ideas, there is a will to live, a desire for creativity. Now I just can't sleep normally, I can't be happy, it's just hard for me every day. And it’s even harder for me because I am responsible to those who are waiting for a drawing from me, who have been waiting for me for a long time to finish the work.
Now I am undergoing treatment, and I need more time (maybe a month).
The doctor gave me treatment, I take pills, I try to spare myself and just distract myself from the bad news. However, it is very difficult, because there is a war going on - and I hate it. I'm so sorry all this is happening. I can't help but think about it, I can't help but think that the future is clouded for years to come. Every day I expect both good news and bad .. this is an eternal painful expectation.
I am writing this so that you understand that I just need some time to heal. And then I will finish all the debts, and I will do everything that is necessary. I want to return to a normal state and a normal world.
Thank you for staying with me. Thank you!