~Zalakir

I should maybe advertize it here.
I've joined Bluesky a few days ago, here's the link:
https://bsky.app/profile/zalakir.bsky.social

So… Yeah, policy update, thing not clear subject to interpretation, you've read it to dozens journals before mine.

There's still my Twitter (https://twitter.com/Zal_Akir) I don't know if my stuff is at risk, it probably is, anyway, future will tell, I do not have the time nor energy to check anyway.

I'll probably seek another platform to post my work (Not inkbunny tho) because Twitter isn't an gallery website.

See ya

Hello everybody! Just a short message to tell you: thank you for the 1000 watchers.

Took me almost 8 years to reach them, but due to how niche our community is, I’m quite happy to have accomplished it ^-^

I can’t do something today but I want to do a little something to celebrate it with you.

Thank you again, and I hope you’ll have a nice week.

Hello.


After a while of introspection, thinking, overthinking, wasted hours on Sea of Thieves, using the waves to relax my mind and consider things in order to ease my struggles, I have decided I’m not going to continue faking a style I do not enjoy working with just because they bring me commissions.

I really enjoy watercolours, and wish to learn more of them. My computer now allows me to use them without freezing to hell and beyond, thanks to a friend having gifted me some spare parts, and those following my twitter (https://twitter.com/Zal_Akir) saw my experiments with it.

I forced myself to stay in a style I do not enjoy using. A style that makes me miserable (None of you are at fault. This is entirely on me) and I have decided, once I have finished my current commission batch, to stop playing pretend and explore different things. Experiment and have fun again.

The beginning of the new generation of MLP is a good opportunity for me to do that change of style, a new cycle begins and I feel like it’s a good time to renew my art

More art is on the way, I’ve fixed my sleeping schedule, and I’m currently trying to sort out things that have prevented me from arting. I’m hoping this change in style can give me back the spark and the enjoyment I used to have.

They are already full, thank you! ^-^

[Slot 1]: Taken
[Slot 2]: Taken
[Slot 3]: Taken

Here are the prices

Sketches : $ 14 per character

Flat Colours: $ 20 Base price
$ 15 Extra character

Shaded Colours: $ 30 Base price
$ 25 Extra Character

Backgrounds: Starts from 15$ for a complex background
Simple Background or few props are free
The price will vary, depending on the complexity

Hello. I am not good for long journals so let me get straight to the point.

I’m leaving the community as someone active in it. I’ll still art and post ABDL stuff but will keep silent until things are better on my side, because, unfortunately, I cannot put aside some things, I do not have the patience to deal with other things, being constantly worn out makes me pick fights for nothing and let assholes and creeps win because I do not have the energy to deal with really toxic people.

I’ll limit my presence to some very specific and closed places, until things are better, I’ll still take some commissions from time to time, but officially postpone any streaming until I am really back.

Have a good day.

Hello! I still have some time in my hands before the classes start, I'll open the commissions before them

I'll take a maximum of 3 commissions, Send me a private message if you're interested

[Slot 1]: Taken
[Slot 2]: Taken
[Slot 3]: Taken

As said in my previous journal, the price has changed since then, here they are:

Sketches : $ 14 per character

Flat Colours: $ 20 Base price
$ 15 Extra character

Shaded Colours: $ 30 Base price
$ 25 Extra Character

Backgrounds: Starts from 15$ for a complex background
Simple Background or few props are free
The price will vary, depending on the complexity

Hey, how is everybody?
Sorry for being quite quiet lately, I think part of me wants to focus on something else.

But I’m here for another reason today: I would like to give someone who deserves it more visibility.

 FrostTriesDrawing is doing some very cute pictures with her own style, and each time she works on something, I notice some great improvements, and at my eyes her art is some fresh air we need in the community (No pun intended).

It is not the conventional show-like style or derivative of it, it puts a lot more attention in the colours and shading, and I personally love their painterly style.

one picture is worth thousands and thousands of words, so I invite you to check her page.

Have a good day!

For the next 7 days I’ll try to put my tablet away and try to relax. Life at home is pretty hard and, to be fair, hostile.

Relaxing may be good, I’ll try to just take it slow for a week, try to sleep more and stop tryharding on my tablet when not much good comes out of my hands
Maybe after that it’ll be better

Sorry for the last commission I have to do, I’ll focus on it when I’m back x.X

Hello,

I’ve been thinking a lot lately. Asking myself some questions. Why was I doing this page, why was I doing ABDL art, why I was selling art in a style I do not enjoy working on.

The truth is… I think I started off wanting to be like Vitriolink or Fillyscoot42/Tenerius, but over the years I decided to draw in a style uniquely suited to me, but I still called it a “Sketch style” instead of calling it my own style.

Today I’ve come to the realization that most of my burnouts are due to me working in that style. I do not enjoy much anymore those plain lines and flat colour, which I use for my “non sketch” commissions.
And it has to end. This current batch will be the last I’ll take with that style, from now on I’ll keep improving my “Sketching” style that isn’t really one, improve it and make it my main.


I’m sorry for those disappointed in this, but in truth I cannot keep saying to other artists “Just be yourself and draw how you enjoy things!” when I do not follow this advice myself.

This picture is a good example of what I mean by my “Sketching” style: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/37062092/
And this is the style I’m tired to work with: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/36149521/
While both are being really cute, this… isn’t what I want to do anymore.

Thanks for your understanding, I’ll see you soon with many other pieces. Now that I have announced it, there’s no way back.

I didn’t forget my current commissions, I was just… lost. I’ll finish them and move on and be more productive ^-^

Have a good day!

Hello everybody! Having a lot of time on my hands, I have decided to open the commissions!

I'll take a maximum of 3 commissions, contact me in private if you want one:

[Slot 1]: Taken
[Slot 2]: Taken
[Slot 3]: Taken

As said in my previous journal, the price has changed since then, here they are:

Sketches : $ 12 per character

Flat Colours: $ 20 Base price
$ 15 Extra character

Shaded Colours: $ 30 Base price
$ 25 Extra Character

Backgrounds: Starts from 15$ for a complex background
Simple Background or few props are free
The price will vary, depending on the complexity

Hello!

Because I haven't changed them in YEARS and really need a dire update, here are my new commission prices from now on
A commission sheet will soon follow to have exemples of art

Sketches : $ 14 per character

Flat Colours: $ 20 Base price
$ 15 Extra character

Shaded Colours: $ 30 Base price
$ 25 Extra Character

Backgrounds: Starts from 15$ for a complex background
Simple Background or few props are free
The price will vary, depending on the complexity

The prices are in USD

I'll try to post my sketches more often instead of doing a big spam next time

Following this last journal (http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9406006)
I’ve decided to take a break for a while. I’ll finish my due commission then move on.

Dunno for how long, dunno if I’ll get back totally on day or just keep sketching and post that on my twitter, but yeah. Life is shit and I have to ease it as much as I can and maybe focusing on something else will help me to not think about all that hell around me.

Being very unhappy with my progresses do not help, and I’ll diversify, doing what I want to do, I’ve always dreamed to do concept art and that’s what I’ll do.

See you someday!

So yeah, I’m not writing a lot of journals lately, or doing a lot of finished pictures, mostly sketches for my twitter (https://twitter.com/Zal_Akir).

I’ve been thinking a lot lately, asking myself if I did the good choices for my life, if I really like what I am doing, if the path I took was really the one I meant to take.

It isn’t. Being honest with yourself is harder than being honest with others, and sometime it’s hard to accept the idea you did the wrong choices for yourself.

Don’t get me wrong. I enjoy arting, I enjoyed MLP, and I definitely am an ABDL and drawing these had a cathartic value for me and maybe gave me the bit of attention I seriously lacked in my life.

But honestly a sick mind will always find a way to be unhappy and will always create troubles where there shouldn’t be one.

I like drawing ABDL art, every now and then. But somehow, because of a silly need to please everyone, a silly fear that I would be hated if I did not do that often, I just focused on that. Over and over and over and over. I became less and less inspired, less and less motivated. Dreaming to draw something else without ever starting it because I was never satisfacted.

It’s not your fault in any case, it’s mostly mine, because maybe I was scared to lose what I built, maybe because I was worried to lose the income that was honestly helping me not going nuts, losing the fact that for once in my life I was feeling useful to something

But I realize today that if I continue that way, I wouldn’t ever be happy with myself.
I am not totally stopping ABDL art, but I feel like I need accept the idea that my time is probably done, but maybe will be back once my life will really be back on track

I sure am feeling like I’m letting you down, even if I am not, that duality is hard to explain but it always was part of me, so at the end of the day, I’m used to it.

I am not quitting art, I am not going to delete my account nor hide my art. I am just admitting that I don’t have the same drive as before. I’m admitting that even if it was fun a while, I grew older in these six years, but I didn’t grow up. I’m in my late 20 and today I realize I have built nothing for myself and even my attempts seem to be a lost cause.

I’ve been thinking a lot, and still am. Always, like a clock that’ll never stop until the end of time itself. What am I doing with my existence?

I need to think more, but I also need to share.

Wooooooooooooooooooooo

Thanks you people :p

I still remember how happy I was when I've hit 100 >.>

Hello everybody! Just a message to tell you that my commissions are open again.

I’ll take 3 slots for today, they’re not emergency commission nor anything, I just want things done before the next classes start.

Here are my prices and it’s probably the last time I’ll use them before raising them, they’ve done their fair time.

Send me a note if interested!

I’ll try to open more often, now that things in my life start to be settled

[Slot 1]: Taken
[Slot 2]: Taken
[Slot 3]: Taken

Hello.

I’ve been thinking it through, and lately, I’m feeling really bad, useless, pointless, as an artist and globally, as a human.

I’ve decided to take a break. I don’t know when it’ll end, I’ll maybe post a sketch or two on my twitter, but nothing much, I’m afraid.

I’ll be focusing on my sfw account, and doing other stuff than ponies. Maybe draw some medieval-fantasy stuff, like I always dreamed to do.

Thanks. See you, I hope, Soon

It's me :p

26 years old today! Another year survived on my desk chair! xD

Hello! I forgot it was already over in two days, but an amazing artist is doing a raffle, and I think he deserves more people to come participate to it ^^"

Just follow this link :http://www.furaffinity.net/view/29692036/

Hello! I'm doing a little raffle here:

https://twitter.com/Zal_Akir/status.....89602281267200

Hello everybody! Tomorrow, at 1PM EST, I’ll be, with a group of other artists, be doing a stream where we’ll take the requests.

The artists confirmed to come are

Living Dead: http://www.furaffinity.net/user/ldj/
Lazynore: http://www.furaffinity.net/user/lazynore/
Anonymilk: http://www.furaffinity.net/user/anonymilk/
Poofy Xai: http://poofyxai.tumblr.com/
And myself:

We’ll take your requests during the stream. I hope to see many of you then!

Hello! My commissions are now open. It’ll follow the system explained here:

My prices can be found On this sheet

Interested? Send me a note!

Hello everybody! This is a journal to let everyone know that commissions will open soon, and that I will be working with a new system that might make everyone happy.

Last time I took a bunch of commission, I took an incredible amount of time to finish them, for various reasons, but more and more people kept asking me “Hey dude, when are you going to open your commissions again?”

Well, I have the answer for it: Soon™.
Jokes aside, I’m thinking of doing a new system for commission. I’ll be taking ONE commission at time, to be sure I don't make anyone wait for 4 months without giving any updates, and accepting like… 4 other people on the waiting list.

In short, I’ll be working on a commission and once I've finished it, I’ll contact the next person on the list to give more details about what kind of art piece they're looking to get. They’ll have two days to answer my message before being pushed one place down on the list.
In short, I don’t need the details of the commission right away. If you wish to have a slot, you’ll have time to think of what you want since I won't be contacting you until the current commission is finished.

The queue will be displayed on my front page on Furaffinity

I hope this system will work and make everyone content. And I'm really sorry for the lack of commissions and communication lately ^^”

Yo. Just a message to tell you I'm back, and I've open a new suggestion box.
goo.gl/forms/9g1bLt0RAMQPBvdu2 Might be easier for everybody :p