No one cares
Posted 7 years agoMy page (and journals included) get no attention at all. Are all my furry friends gone from FA or is it simply that no one knows or cares about me?
My last journal was sure to get some comments, I thought... but nothing.
My last journal was sure to get some comments, I thought... but nothing.
Time for an update
Posted 8 years agoA lot has been going on since my last journal, most of it transition related.
I'm officially "out" now- like, totally. On Facebook, at work, etc. I starting to build up a respectable wardrobe, too.
I began HRT (Hormone Replacement Therapy) on Nov 11 of last year. So I just had my one year anniversary ^_^ My body has changed a lot in this past year, as well as my psyche. Much more feminine now (duh!). I have boobs, my hips and butt are noticeable, my face and body have slimmed down in a way, but that's also because I've been eating better. I'll buy a gym membership early next year. I went a few times to try it out and I like it.
About that HRT, it's a killer! I began Estrogen supplements and Androgen (things like Testosterone) blockers last November. About 3 months ago I added a new treatment called Progesterone. The goal is to further enhance my bust and hips area, and it does this by making my body think it's pregnant. You read that right, except for having an actual bun in the proverbial oven, I am kinda pregnant. By that I mean I have all the mood swings (and even stronger emotions than before) and breast soreness, etc. Life is kinda... challenging lately. I've never needed this much emotional support, and I've cried more in the last few months than the rest of my life combined. Sometimes happy tears, but also a fair amount of sad and scared ones.
Overall I am very happy with where I am in my transition. I've come a long way. I also have a great support network, as we call it. I have support from home, friends and at work. If I didn't have this, things wouldn't be so good for me. I don't want to get too dark, but lack of such a support network is what often leads to trans people removing themselves from the world. I think about those people and try to offer as much support as I can to other trans people. But you don't have to worry about that for me. I'm not going to be a danger to myself.
I present as female at work, but grocery shopping and such... I just dress neutral. I don't like it, but I'm comfortable enough to just deal with it. No need to draw undue attention to myself. Besides, I'm still filling out that wardrobe, lol ^_~
For the future, I foresee just buying more clothes and presenting more often. Unfortunately, my face isn't "passable" yet, and I still need face laser to get rid of (or lessen) my facial hair. I have a hair dresser, he and his boyfriend are amazing! I recently got a new dye job for Fall. Top is black, and about halfway down it becomes a dark red. My hair is almost down to my gorgeous booty =P
Despite rising violence against trans individuals and people of color due to the new presidential administration, I am excited and hopeful for the future. I'm going to keep moving forward and keep living my life. Authentically, this time. That's what it's all about, right?
"Love and Peace!"
~Vash the Stampede
I'm officially "out" now- like, totally. On Facebook, at work, etc. I starting to build up a respectable wardrobe, too.
I began HRT (Hormone Replacement Therapy) on Nov 11 of last year. So I just had my one year anniversary ^_^ My body has changed a lot in this past year, as well as my psyche. Much more feminine now (duh!). I have boobs, my hips and butt are noticeable, my face and body have slimmed down in a way, but that's also because I've been eating better. I'll buy a gym membership early next year. I went a few times to try it out and I like it.
About that HRT, it's a killer! I began Estrogen supplements and Androgen (things like Testosterone) blockers last November. About 3 months ago I added a new treatment called Progesterone. The goal is to further enhance my bust and hips area, and it does this by making my body think it's pregnant. You read that right, except for having an actual bun in the proverbial oven, I am kinda pregnant. By that I mean I have all the mood swings (and even stronger emotions than before) and breast soreness, etc. Life is kinda... challenging lately. I've never needed this much emotional support, and I've cried more in the last few months than the rest of my life combined. Sometimes happy tears, but also a fair amount of sad and scared ones.
Overall I am very happy with where I am in my transition. I've come a long way. I also have a great support network, as we call it. I have support from home, friends and at work. If I didn't have this, things wouldn't be so good for me. I don't want to get too dark, but lack of such a support network is what often leads to trans people removing themselves from the world. I think about those people and try to offer as much support as I can to other trans people. But you don't have to worry about that for me. I'm not going to be a danger to myself.
I present as female at work, but grocery shopping and such... I just dress neutral. I don't like it, but I'm comfortable enough to just deal with it. No need to draw undue attention to myself. Besides, I'm still filling out that wardrobe, lol ^_~
For the future, I foresee just buying more clothes and presenting more often. Unfortunately, my face isn't "passable" yet, and I still need face laser to get rid of (or lessen) my facial hair. I have a hair dresser, he and his boyfriend are amazing! I recently got a new dye job for Fall. Top is black, and about halfway down it becomes a dark red. My hair is almost down to my gorgeous booty =P
Despite rising violence against trans individuals and people of color due to the new presidential administration, I am excited and hopeful for the future. I'm going to keep moving forward and keep living my life. Authentically, this time. That's what it's all about, right?
"Love and Peace!"
~Vash the Stampede
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Posted 9 years agoThis account is receiving full account switch. I used to be 
ProcyonLoki
But now I'm Valerian Rabbit. If you know/knew me at all, you really should read this journal...
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/6862285/
ProcyonLokiBut now I'm Valerian Rabbit. If you know/knew me at all, you really should read this journal...
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/6862285/
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